12-22-2013, 08:28 AM
Man can't believe I haven't replied to this yet (I thought I did a while ago, but my comment isnt anywhere to be seen, so maybe I didn't).
Glad you are writing some of this stuff in your sketchbook. I can see you feel like you are complaining when you write it, I feel the same way when I write out stuff like this. I feel like every post is a complaint and an excise for why I didn't work harder. But I can tell you that from the other side of the fence, these sort of posts don't come across that way (or at least yours don't. Mine probably do xP )
I find that goals help. Really ambitious 'I could never do that' sort of goals. It goes against a lot of what people say, because if you are unrealistic of your goal, or if it really is un-achievable. When you realise this you get depressed and it works negatively. Well in my experience thats a load of shit.
My mentality is aim for the stars and even if you only get to the moon, guess what? You are on the freaking moon. No one is around for miles because they were too busy aiming for the moon and spent too much time wanking in the stratosphere.
And even if you do fail, everyone goes through ups and downs, so you are going to feel depressed about your work eventually anyway. I prefer to blindly chase the carrot on the stick that is always just out of my reach, people may say it is impossible to get the carrot, but its a hell of a lot easier to do the impossible when you don't know its impossible. And if by some chance you actually achieve this un-achievable goal. Thats when you get people saying 'How the fuck did you do that?', 'You are so talented, I would never be able to do that'.
And then you progress to the 'I'm a fraud, and don't actually know how I got here or what I am doing. Someone is going to find out I'm just faking it and it will all unravel.' Which a lot of professional artists seem to say. But, we as a group, as the crimson daggers will tackle that together too, when we are all great, because deep down, we will know that we are all in the same boat.
I guess my point with that last bit is to just take the problems as they come. There will always be problems, it's never perfect, the journey has no end and a lot of treacherous climbs.
/end rant
/end overuse of strange metaphors
Glad you are writing some of this stuff in your sketchbook. I can see you feel like you are complaining when you write it, I feel the same way when I write out stuff like this. I feel like every post is a complaint and an excise for why I didn't work harder. But I can tell you that from the other side of the fence, these sort of posts don't come across that way (or at least yours don't. Mine probably do xP )
I find that goals help. Really ambitious 'I could never do that' sort of goals. It goes against a lot of what people say, because if you are unrealistic of your goal, or if it really is un-achievable. When you realise this you get depressed and it works negatively. Well in my experience thats a load of shit.
My mentality is aim for the stars and even if you only get to the moon, guess what? You are on the freaking moon. No one is around for miles because they were too busy aiming for the moon and spent too much time wanking in the stratosphere.
And even if you do fail, everyone goes through ups and downs, so you are going to feel depressed about your work eventually anyway. I prefer to blindly chase the carrot on the stick that is always just out of my reach, people may say it is impossible to get the carrot, but its a hell of a lot easier to do the impossible when you don't know its impossible. And if by some chance you actually achieve this un-achievable goal. Thats when you get people saying 'How the fuck did you do that?', 'You are so talented, I would never be able to do that'.
And then you progress to the 'I'm a fraud, and don't actually know how I got here or what I am doing. Someone is going to find out I'm just faking it and it will all unravel.' Which a lot of professional artists seem to say. But, we as a group, as the crimson daggers will tackle that together too, when we are all great, because deep down, we will know that we are all in the same boat.
I guess my point with that last bit is to just take the problems as they come. There will always be problems, it's never perfect, the journey has no end and a lot of treacherous climbs.
/end rant
/end overuse of strange metaphors