04-26-2015, 07:51 PM
Hi everybody,
I am new here, somebody recommended Crimson Daggers to me.
So, the topic says it all, but will need a little explanation:
Usually I am the type of person who never gives up and is very focused, but recently I feel damn depressed and like a useless loser and find it hard to get my motivation back again. I don't know if anything in particular happened to make me feel this way. But I don't like it!
Okay so here are the facts. I am already 30 and jobless. I was drawing my whole life long, always my favourite thing to do and I would consider myself as good, not as good as my favourite artists but def. not bad at all. I studied graphic design, wich took me too long and aside I was a comic artist at a small publisher.
But even though I am 30 already and have a very good diploma in graphic design, I don't get a job. I think it's all messed up.
To make it clear, I love drawing the most, conceptual, especially characters and illustration and it's what I really want to do. And not graphic design. Maybe I shouldn't even have studied it, but I did what others expected from me instead of doing what I thought was good for me. And I thought if I graduated in graphic I could at least earn some money with it, if the drawing thing doesn't work. Because we all need money, right?
But I don't get a job may it be in graphic design or something illustration or game art. If I get a reply (but mostly I don't) I am always denied because I don't have relevant experience. I did some freelance jobs just to have some money, but most of the time it was small graphic design jobs or web design and very very badly paid. Like I mean really!
1-2 years ago I became interested in concept art and taught myself about it and digital painting. I worked very hard on my portfolio and started to send some applications again this year, but nothing yet. Now I am really down and frustrated, I don't know what to work on now, not inspired to start another self-owned project or find myself things to improve. While I am afraid of never landing a real job, I find myself gaming because it's the only thing I can have a feeling of success with atm.
Sorry this was so long, but if anybody did read this, could you give me an advice? There's no use in "kick your own ass" or "just do it" or "where theres a will there is a way" or some wisdom like that. I need some straight forward advice on what to do to get myself motivated again. Ways to cheer myself up or how to get out of this and tipps on finding work (I use indeed.com, oDesk and linked in, I am looking worldwide because in the place where I live there is nearly nothing for me). So please something concrete.
Thank you if you came to this outro without skipping the middle part :p
Hoping for replies...
I am new here, somebody recommended Crimson Daggers to me.
So, the topic says it all, but will need a little explanation:
Usually I am the type of person who never gives up and is very focused, but recently I feel damn depressed and like a useless loser and find it hard to get my motivation back again. I don't know if anything in particular happened to make me feel this way. But I don't like it!
Okay so here are the facts. I am already 30 and jobless. I was drawing my whole life long, always my favourite thing to do and I would consider myself as good, not as good as my favourite artists but def. not bad at all. I studied graphic design, wich took me too long and aside I was a comic artist at a small publisher.
But even though I am 30 already and have a very good diploma in graphic design, I don't get a job. I think it's all messed up.
To make it clear, I love drawing the most, conceptual, especially characters and illustration and it's what I really want to do. And not graphic design. Maybe I shouldn't even have studied it, but I did what others expected from me instead of doing what I thought was good for me. And I thought if I graduated in graphic I could at least earn some money with it, if the drawing thing doesn't work. Because we all need money, right?
But I don't get a job may it be in graphic design or something illustration or game art. If I get a reply (but mostly I don't) I am always denied because I don't have relevant experience. I did some freelance jobs just to have some money, but most of the time it was small graphic design jobs or web design and very very badly paid. Like I mean really!
1-2 years ago I became interested in concept art and taught myself about it and digital painting. I worked very hard on my portfolio and started to send some applications again this year, but nothing yet. Now I am really down and frustrated, I don't know what to work on now, not inspired to start another self-owned project or find myself things to improve. While I am afraid of never landing a real job, I find myself gaming because it's the only thing I can have a feeling of success with atm.
Sorry this was so long, but if anybody did read this, could you give me an advice? There's no use in "kick your own ass" or "just do it" or "where theres a will there is a way" or some wisdom like that. I need some straight forward advice on what to do to get myself motivated again. Ways to cheer myself up or how to get out of this and tipps on finding work (I use indeed.com, oDesk and linked in, I am looking worldwide because in the place where I live there is nearly nothing for me). So please something concrete.
Thank you if you came to this outro without skipping the middle part :p
Hoping for replies...