06-22-2016, 06:00 PM
No worries man, hope it helped. Gotta respond to a couple of things
I think this is where you will benefit the most from actively trying to change your perspective. Do you see the cycle you are perpetuating here? Jump into a creative thing....get to a certain stage, burn out / "fail", move onto something else. Pour all your effort into succeeding at the new thing as a way to prove yourself. Now it's at the point where art is your "last resort" It must be pretty unpleasant inside that Koala head if this is the case. It is not a last resort at all. You are just doing it now. Why make it so loaded?
I personally wouldn't view the music as a failure at all. It is something you did for a while and then you moved on. The writing is the same deal. And actually to conceded defeat at 17 with only one book that didn't make it, is really kinda throwing in the towel before you even got started!! Most writers get rejected a thousand more times than artists do. The eventually successful ones keep going regardless because it isn't mostly about the success for them. it's about the love of the craft. Do you only judge success at a creative endeavour by how much dollars it has provided for you? Well then go make contemporary modern art.
You say that's just the way you are. Maybe to some degree, but bollocks if you can't actively change your perspective if you are aware of it adversely affecting you. It requires some effort that's all. I suggest you make the effort, to rid yourself of this notion of future success in art as if it's some sort of ultimate reward or personal vindication for yourself and for other people's perception of your success. When you get more success you might get that vindication and that's great, but to seek it will tend to make you scattered and lack focus because all of that is an externally driven motivation, not an internal one.
That's kind of what I was talking about above. You probably get swayed more easily by what people say you should be doing and get pretty confused and taken this way and that. I mean we probably all have gone through this to be fair. But if you want someone to tell you, what is the right thing to do it is because ultimately you are probably also looking to others to deliver that validation you seek.
Na uh. Ass backwards. The validation should be from being creative in itself. Then the act is its own reward, and reward enough. Eventually you will get better and start to get the external validation too.
K that's all I got. Yeah keep going man! Do a bit of introspection. Decide you want to tailor a folio to stuff like book covers or character design etc, and start a deathline and get some folio pieces underway. In the other times, keep working on your technical weaknesses. If you just keep doing that, there is no doubt you WILL make it where you want.
Quote:First, yea unfortunately my reality is i put a lot of weight on my success in art because i have went a long way in other fields as far as learning skills like (metal) music (I put twice as much work into that as i have art over a longer period of time) and never got pennies for it. Being in bands, trying to record with idiots, i got burnt out on it man, never again lol. Same with writing, i wrote and self published a book at 17 and it failed. So this is like a last resort for me.
I think this is where you will benefit the most from actively trying to change your perspective. Do you see the cycle you are perpetuating here? Jump into a creative thing....get to a certain stage, burn out / "fail", move onto something else. Pour all your effort into succeeding at the new thing as a way to prove yourself. Now it's at the point where art is your "last resort" It must be pretty unpleasant inside that Koala head if this is the case. It is not a last resort at all. You are just doing it now. Why make it so loaded?
I personally wouldn't view the music as a failure at all. It is something you did for a while and then you moved on. The writing is the same deal. And actually to conceded defeat at 17 with only one book that didn't make it, is really kinda throwing in the towel before you even got started!! Most writers get rejected a thousand more times than artists do. The eventually successful ones keep going regardless because it isn't mostly about the success for them. it's about the love of the craft. Do you only judge success at a creative endeavour by how much dollars it has provided for you? Well then go make contemporary modern art.
You say that's just the way you are. Maybe to some degree, but bollocks if you can't actively change your perspective if you are aware of it adversely affecting you. It requires some effort that's all. I suggest you make the effort, to rid yourself of this notion of future success in art as if it's some sort of ultimate reward or personal vindication for yourself and for other people's perception of your success. When you get more success you might get that vindication and that's great, but to seek it will tend to make you scattered and lack focus because all of that is an externally driven motivation, not an internal one.
Quote:What you say in 2. "follow your interests" is something i think i haven't done right. My head is just really confused as to what i should be doing, what i really want to see, and what i think i should do. then there's people who say "an artist should make it in 2 years, 3 years, 4 years etc." And that is adding to the insanity lol.
That's kind of what I was talking about above. You probably get swayed more easily by what people say you should be doing and get pretty confused and taken this way and that. I mean we probably all have gone through this to be fair. But if you want someone to tell you, what is the right thing to do it is because ultimately you are probably also looking to others to deliver that validation you seek.
Na uh. Ass backwards. The validation should be from being creative in itself. Then the act is its own reward, and reward enough. Eventually you will get better and start to get the external validation too.
K that's all I got. Yeah keep going man! Do a bit of introspection. Decide you want to tailor a folio to stuff like book covers or character design etc, and start a deathline and get some folio pieces underway. In the other times, keep working on your technical weaknesses. If you just keep doing that, there is no doubt you WILL make it where you want.