Fedodika the Koala

[John]

Sooo, drew 500 or so sphere's today, with like interlocking discs inside of them. on the second picture, the ones on the top right are the first ones I did, and the bottom right are the last few of the 500. Obviously the lines are still a bit hairy, but they are leagues above what I was doing initially.

Not only that they're hairy.. some don't even pass off as spheres.


Well, good thing here is you're getting good at drawing a random egg :)

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I really wished I would have taken seriously this stuff early on, probably would have saved me about 2 years of wasted time.

I wouldn't beat myself over it. There are some crits I receive from others that I still don't seem to have a breakthrough to this day. I know. It sucks! 

I've been knocking on the same not-to-be-named game company's door for at least half a decade already, I still get the same critiques. Weak anatomy. Weak understanding of light. No knowledge of composition. And the list goes on. That's 5 years of me applying what I thought I know was correct incorrectly. That's 5 years of bombing and should be treated as that. They're not a waste because if it wasn't for those years of bombing we would not have the realization we have now, which is, we haven't got the skills or knowledge to get us where we want to be. 

It's probably a waste of time if you hang up the gloves and call it quits. But 'til then, it's not a waste of time.

People like structure, for some reason.

Reason being. With structure, an illustration will have stability or legs on stand on. Or consistency. Something to counterbalance the abundance of chaos in a piece. Or anything for that matter..

I hate how things are because I can't make them fit my reality

That's a pretty honest statement.. a little bit delusional. Having two separate different things and putting them both under the same umbrella of the word 'reality' is a bit iffy :)

You think art is a place you can cut up in and be a rebel, but not in this particular field. Maybe if you're a hell of a salesman and can sell complete bullshit as being deep or whatever it could work but not in the real field.

I've seen a plain white painting sold for millions. I think what the artist did was hook a witty title to it and boom. Money.

Spite and revenge have always been a fuel for me, I hope I never run out.

If I may ask, who wronged you in the first place to get you in such a vindictive state?