The Velvet Revolvers

[Jeso]

Hey guys, awesome work.

This response goes to you 2, Trigger and Book. And I guess its partly weekly review.

I get where you guys are coming from. ADD and will power. I also thought maybe I had that ADD too. I guess its easy to think that, when you are trying to stick to a task, but your brain actively wants to fuck you over and drags you into the procrastination. I always have that. But, there is a thing, that solves both ADD and lack of will power.

That is the power of choice. Forget about concepts such as Will power, or Laziness. It all comes down the power of choice. Decide that you are going to do something, and just DO IT. Its hard because of what our mind tells us hard work entails. BUT, if you decide to do it, and you shut off your brain for a little bit, before you know it you are a couple of hours into the work, sitting at your desk, and you think "fuck I'm tired I wanna play a game, but then you will be like, wait, I'm already here, doing this shit, might as well keep going strong. Embrace momentum. I have noticed I had shit ton of momentum like a month ago. Something happened to me, I'm still me, but my momentum was gone, because I stopped working like I was. And Its become since then, harder to get back in the zone. Momentum is your most powerful Ally.

But again, If you decide to do that thing you need to do, and just do it without any more thought, Its easy to carry on further. If you overthink it before you even start, It starts feeling like a compromise. that's when you just look the other way and waste time. So just do it, slap yourself to stop your brain to go any further from that thought, and sit on your desk and start.

That's what I'm gonna do today. And tomorrow, and the next day.

I recently got a critique from Daniel Warren, about my portfolio, He was super nice about it. But still, was incredibly disheartening. It turns out I'm not even good enough to work for Paizo, which was fucking depressing. You telling me after 4.5 years of art training I cant even work for a low company like Paizo? god... how much longer til I can make a living... I thought.
But thinking about this shit, only hinders yourself. Paizo aint my goal, it never was. My goal is greatness. I'm aiming at greatness not paizo. I may never be the one artist for Paizo, but, I can reach my potential and achieve greatness If I keep going and dont give up.

So dont give up Revolvers, never.