Shout Box archive

22 Jun 03:26

Amit Dutta

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I didn't say it was good :)

22 Jun 03:25

John

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Why was joining that competition a good thing? What made it good?

22 Jun 03:25

Amit Dutta

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Why is what a good thing?

22 Jun 03:25

John

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Why is it a good thing then?

22 Jun 03:25

John

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Yeah I am serious. But is this really about me?

22 Jun 03:24

Amit Dutta

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you want to be controlled by everything that happens to you that isn't in your control? Ok enjoy life man

22 Jun 03:24

Amit Dutta

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are you serious?

22 Jun 03:23

Amit Dutta

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which it isnt' by the way

22 Jun 03:23

John

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Why is it good?

22 Jun 03:23

Amit Dutta

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My happiness wasnt' dictated by the results of something out of my control

22 Jun 03:23

Amit Dutta

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I joined because it seemed like a good thing to do

22 Jun 03:23

John

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But you cared enough to join?

22 Jun 03:22

Amit Dutta

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I didn't care

22 Jun 03:22

John

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You didn't want to win?

22 Jun 03:22

Amit Dutta

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except now you are seeing it discompassionately.

22 Jun 03:22

Amit Dutta

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Remove the desire, you still have the probability

22 Jun 03:22

Amit Dutta

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The desire for that probablity is hope

22 Jun 03:21

Amit Dutta

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No, it is a probability is it not?

22 Jun 03:21

John

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Isn't realizing you can win hope?

22 Jun 03:21

Amit Dutta

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I don't become suddenly retarded

22 Jun 03:21

Amit Dutta

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I realise I can still win lol

22 Jun 03:20

Amit Dutta

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Not at all

22 Jun 03:20

John

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Alright. Competition. Were you just joining ironically then?

22 Jun 03:19

Amit Dutta

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I can't tell you how nice it was to get rid of that bullshit from my psyche

22 Jun 03:19

Amit Dutta

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I still hold my work to a strict standard of quality that I am often not happy with, but it doesn't get me down.

22 Jun 03:18

Amit Dutta

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but I only realised how damaging it was, to me, and only succeeded in going forwards, when I got rid of it. It may not be how other people do it, but I can tell you for a fact now I have NO jealousy of others, I don't compare myself to others, I have NO negative feelings about my work, I am NOT disapointed by not achieveing certain things like competition wins etc

22 Jun 03:17

Amit Dutta

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So the journey started in hope, for sure

22 Jun 03:17

Amit Dutta

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Yeah I hear you

22 Jun 03:17

John

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*into becoming an artist

22 Jun 03:16

John

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I'm sure you didn't just slip your way into an artist.

22 Jun 03:16

John

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without hoping to become that person before?

22 Jun 03:16

Amit Dutta

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maybe I am crazy...