smrrfette's Odyssey

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JyonnyNovice - Hey thanks for the encouragement man <3 oooh. I love Mingjue's work, thx -- definitely no where near there yet but I will get there ~ nah, I colour them later
Yeah spot on with the crit believe me, I see all the shit wrong with it :D thank you again <3 <3
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Spoiler

I hate myself rn.
Well, more than usual lmao

I cannot.............................. believe ............................. how much I............................. screwed up on CC2. It's disgusting. And I even knew I was screwing up while I was working on it -- but I passed it off as "oh it's my styleeEEE". >_>
Fuck off! Please, girl. PUH-LEEEEEEZ.

I'm really just so pissed off at myself in general. You know? It's not about winning/losing at all, I'm just disappointed in myself. I feel like if this was a legit job - that I'd have disappointed my client and you know - that doesn't sit well with me, not one bit.
By "in general" I mean - I'm also disappointed in how I've lost my way over the years. But that's another story


I'm fucking done with being lazy. 

Today:

Slightly redoing CC2 - as far as I can by the end of today. Just forcing myself to use my time wisely. As Amit said -- we had 3 weeks. I mean come the fuck on, steph -_-




tl;dr I'm tired of making stupid af mistakes :D and am going to push myself like I once did.