08-18-2016, 01:22 AM
tl;dr: I 100% felt like shit about myself because my art wasn't at a certain standard. I understand how it happens though since I grew up in the shadow of a talented older brother. I don't really feel that way anymore : )
I can understand why and how it happens; I grew up living in the shadow of my older brother, who is realllly gifted musically and vocally...it sucks because of obvious reasons: being compared to him constantly and being held to a certain standard (a standard that is always increasing! Haha!) etc etc
There's one specific moment in recent memory that has always stuck in my brain (HAHAHA): one time, in my high school algebra class, this dude commented towards me, 'what happened to you? Looks like your brother got all of the talent in your family.' Comments like that peppered throughout my life has sorta added fuel to my pursuit to becoming a better artist. Like, this shit happened during HIGH SCHOOL,man. My formative years! lol Such a vulnerable time in most people's lives i think. :( I didn't study art due to a prior passion or for funsies, I did it because I saw it fitting (in a lame, poetic 'just kill me' sort of way), seeing as how my brother was a talented musical artist: why not pursue the visual arts?
So, yeah it sorta caused me to identify myself with my art for sometime...I mean, if that's what you guys consider as identifying with your art, ya know? My self worth was based on what I could offer on a high level skillwise that was comparable to my older brother's creative and technical output. Making it as a professional was suppose to be my way of ridding myself of that weird relationship I've created in my head...but those thoughts alone would undoubtedly put me in a perpetuating cycle, regardless of whether I become a professional or not.
I've since grew out of it, but yeah. I understand how people can become to identify their selves with anyyyythiing, really...
Sorry if this isn't want you guys mean when you think of 'self identifying with art'
Is it possible to positively identify our selves with our art? The semantics are kinda confusing my dumbass.
What if you have a family and the art you create is the sole reason why your wife and daughter are warm and fed? That can cause one to self identify with his work; "I feel like shit because my art is barely at the level to get me enough jobs to get by"
Or, let's say you dig yourself out of said predicament to a point where, not only are you supporting your family, you are THRIVING! Affording luxuries for your children! You've made it thanks to your hard work! Your ART! I can understand how one can come to identify hisself with his work in this fashion too.
I dunno, correct me if I'm wrong. Just offering some perspective. Like I said: I don't even know what you guys are really talking about haha. Sorry!
I can understand why and how it happens; I grew up living in the shadow of my older brother, who is realllly gifted musically and vocally...it sucks because of obvious reasons: being compared to him constantly and being held to a certain standard (a standard that is always increasing! Haha!) etc etc
There's one specific moment in recent memory that has always stuck in my brain (HAHAHA): one time, in my high school algebra class, this dude commented towards me, 'what happened to you? Looks like your brother got all of the talent in your family.' Comments like that peppered throughout my life has sorta added fuel to my pursuit to becoming a better artist. Like, this shit happened during HIGH SCHOOL,man. My formative years! lol Such a vulnerable time in most people's lives i think. :( I didn't study art due to a prior passion or for funsies, I did it because I saw it fitting (in a lame, poetic 'just kill me' sort of way), seeing as how my brother was a talented musical artist: why not pursue the visual arts?
So, yeah it sorta caused me to identify myself with my art for sometime...I mean, if that's what you guys consider as identifying with your art, ya know? My self worth was based on what I could offer on a high level skillwise that was comparable to my older brother's creative and technical output. Making it as a professional was suppose to be my way of ridding myself of that weird relationship I've created in my head...but those thoughts alone would undoubtedly put me in a perpetuating cycle, regardless of whether I become a professional or not.
I've since grew out of it, but yeah. I understand how people can become to identify their selves with anyyyythiing, really...
Sorry if this isn't want you guys mean when you think of 'self identifying with art'
Is it possible to positively identify our selves with our art? The semantics are kinda confusing my dumbass.
What if you have a family and the art you create is the sole reason why your wife and daughter are warm and fed? That can cause one to self identify with his work; "I feel like shit because my art is barely at the level to get me enough jobs to get by"
Or, let's say you dig yourself out of said predicament to a point where, not only are you supporting your family, you are THRIVING! Affording luxuries for your children! You've made it thanks to your hard work! Your ART! I can understand how one can come to identify hisself with his work in this fashion too.
I dunno, correct me if I'm wrong. Just offering some perspective. Like I said: I don't even know what you guys are really talking about haha. Sorry!