Orange Pekoe

[Orange Pekoe]

Hey Orange.

Yeah, I guess I'll try to be more productive, but I seem to have hard time remembering to visit this place.

Phrases like 'I guess' or 'I'll try' are a cop out. Find the word 'try' on your past posts. You might even surprise yourself it pops out ever so often.

Those phrases relieves you of certain things you don't want to be responsible for. Maybe the reason why you aren't productive is because you given yourself an out from the get go. By not being productive, you're already engaging with this self-fulfilling prophecy you setup for yourself. I can call you out for being unproductive, you can always answer me back with: 'well, I said I tried.'

How about instead of 'I try', use the phrase 'I'm going to'. Put your integrity at stake.

You came back to replace your other addictions. You came back hoping you'll going to get a semblance of productivity. I have to call you out on this now while you still got momentum on being productive.

I have to remind myself once every few days that I was suppose to be committed into this community

Probably it's better for you now to worry less about being committed to the community and focus on committing yourself to drawing. Commit yourself to making it a habit. If you really want to work in the industry (like you said you would in your old SB), you got to put in the hours. In the end, you're doing this for yourself.

I've seen your old sketchbook. That burst of productivity sandwiched in between a year of non-activity. I don't want to be that prick who calls you out on it. But I have to. You came back here for a reason, maybe it's high time to prove to everyone, especially to yourself, that this time you got what it takes to not let up on your craft.

Alright then :D