Is it possible to make yourself enjoy art?

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The fact that you're afraid to do something but at the same time feel like you must do it might mean that conquering that fear is going to contribute to your goal and growth a ton :) I'm reading this book these days https://aimeeknight.files.wordpress.com/...il_pbo.pdf check it out, about resistance ;) Learned about it from Ash Thorp podcast.
Dennis gave you some solid advice.
Looking forward to see your architecture stuff!