05-22-2017, 02:40 AM
Happy Sunday!
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No more school in one more week but I am still going to work at my normal job and at my school (for free mind you) and I have to start getting myself out there. I literally have no idea how to do that but I am going to try very hard to get somebody to care. I might start up a character designing portfolio and Email some people who might be interesting in having their characters designed for them (I think I said this before and I still haven't done it). I feel like I can only access a small community with that, but fuck it, it's better than nothing.
Also, my art is not dazzling or realistic or tactful or anything. It's just there. That sounds so depressing but honestly, what did you expect from me nigga? in society, people prefer the realistically painted and rendered shit which is not something I'm interesting in but FUCK it looks like I need to buckle down and start painting some shit (which is what I also said but I still don't do a lot of that honestly...). People tell me that my art is amazing and I have a lot of patience and shit but what about the industry's thoughts? What would they say about this? It is more important about what they say than what someone barely in the art world has to say because they are the ones guaranteeing me a roof over my damn head. I like the compliments and the love, I appreciate it so much, but the anxiety and depression is still creeping up on me and I want to punch them in the face. Compliments don't help with that unfortunately.
I was always very anxious about my future and if I will ever become anything but holy shit it is going to get so much worse when my senior year comes about. BUT!! This summer is going to be my most active summer ever, art-wise and getting-my-shit-together-wise. More online interactivity from me, going to multiple colleges to check shit out, actually getting a job, probably making art prints in the future. After the summer, I'll join the Graphic Novel club at the school (which I WILL regret, but sacrifices, sacrifices, sacrifices), I'll make caricatures of my teachers as a gift for being not annoying... I'll do anything to make an opportunity come up for me.
(Art): More animal illustrations feat. koalas. I should start trying to get better at animals like lions because that lion illustration still got me fucked up. But this image was much better than the frog or the lion in my opinion.
![[Image: kQgueyz.png]](http://i.imgur.com/kQgueyz.png)
Oh that's right, I think I found a perfect brush for my line art! Now I just need to control my line weights and there might be a slight chance I could be happy with my digital art for one fucking day! :)
(Art): Honestly, this is just line art practice for me. I call him "The Lifeguard". But I am still not sure if I want a cell shaded look like BrotherBaston or a painterly style. Practice and studies will answer that question for me. I might make two versions and ask people's opinions on them.
![[Image: BO0DSJz.jpg]](http://i.imgur.com/BO0DSJz.jpg)
![[Image: Nkcechw.jpg]](http://i.imgur.com/Nkcechw.jpg)
(Art): Three sketches which I really liked. I have been studying portraiture and expressions lately and I feel like my angry expressions are getting better and better. All I need to do is go on Google and copy and study some things once in a while.
No more school in one more week but I am still going to work at my normal job and at my school (for free mind you) and I have to start getting myself out there. I literally have no idea how to do that but I am going to try very hard to get somebody to care. I might start up a character designing portfolio and Email some people who might be interesting in having their characters designed for them (I think I said this before and I still haven't done it). I feel like I can only access a small community with that, but fuck it, it's better than nothing.
Also, my art is not dazzling or realistic or tactful or anything. It's just there. That sounds so depressing but honestly, what did you expect from me nigga? in society, people prefer the realistically painted and rendered shit which is not something I'm interesting in but FUCK it looks like I need to buckle down and start painting some shit (which is what I also said but I still don't do a lot of that honestly...). People tell me that my art is amazing and I have a lot of patience and shit but what about the industry's thoughts? What would they say about this? It is more important about what they say than what someone barely in the art world has to say because they are the ones guaranteeing me a roof over my damn head. I like the compliments and the love, I appreciate it so much, but the anxiety and depression is still creeping up on me and I want to punch them in the face. Compliments don't help with that unfortunately.
I was always very anxious about my future and if I will ever become anything but holy shit it is going to get so much worse when my senior year comes about. BUT!! This summer is going to be my most active summer ever, art-wise and getting-my-shit-together-wise. More online interactivity from me, going to multiple colleges to check shit out, actually getting a job, probably making art prints in the future. After the summer, I'll join the Graphic Novel club at the school (which I WILL regret, but sacrifices, sacrifices, sacrifices), I'll make caricatures of my teachers as a gift for being not annoying... I'll do anything to make an opportunity come up for me.
(Art): More animal illustrations feat. koalas. I should start trying to get better at animals like lions because that lion illustration still got me fucked up. But this image was much better than the frog or the lion in my opinion.
Oh that's right, I think I found a perfect brush for my line art! Now I just need to control my line weights and there might be a slight chance I could be happy with my digital art for one fucking day! :)
(Art): Honestly, this is just line art practice for me. I call him "The Lifeguard". But I am still not sure if I want a cell shaded look like BrotherBaston or a painterly style. Practice and studies will answer that question for me. I might make two versions and ask people's opinions on them.
(Art): Three sketches which I really liked. I have been studying portraiture and expressions lately and I feel like my angry expressions are getting better and better. All I need to do is go on Google and copy and study some things once in a while.