12-14-2017, 02:21 AM
Thank you so much for your replies guys, I really appreciate taking your time to write here and help out.
I came to the conclusion that I'm really pushing myself too hard without being opened to the possibilities.
I'm definitely an emotional person, so I often share stuff while under a certain state of mind, later on thinking I should've probably restrained from saying that.
It's true, I needed some time out, some "going for a walk" time, mindset is the most important thing for an artist. You can have all the skill in the world, but if you're not willing to sit down and start painting, it's useless.
Enter the void, for me, is more about that transcendence, leaving the body, stuff like that, but maybe also about being alone. Another thing that fascinates me (and I believe the movie captured it) is the nighttime, night life, walking on the street at night, looking at all the lights, kinda makes me forget stuff and helps me get into that first level of meditation (I believe it's called the alpha state), where your mind stops thinking and you just observe, hear the sounds, feel the wind, maybe slightly chilly, and suddenly everything feels brighter and more clear, like I'm suddenly putting on some ultra HD glasses.
I have to agree that once you're good at doing something, it definitely feels good when you do it. So obviously, you keep at it and become even better. That's me with figure drawing.
But the problem is instead of going further each time, expanding, I just sat there and kept drawing in that comfort zone.
Since I've done so many characters and studied so much, it wouldn't make any sense to try something completely different. So, instead, I wanna try incorporate some design elements bit by bit, just enough so it wouldn't become a pain. Having that as a goal, I imagine at some point I'll be able to create an illustration that is good enough to get me hired by Paizo or a similar company.
Unfortunately, I decided that the Patreon has to wait a while longer.
I came to the conclusion that I'm really pushing myself too hard without being opened to the possibilities.
I'm definitely an emotional person, so I often share stuff while under a certain state of mind, later on thinking I should've probably restrained from saying that.
It's true, I needed some time out, some "going for a walk" time, mindset is the most important thing for an artist. You can have all the skill in the world, but if you're not willing to sit down and start painting, it's useless.
Enter the void, for me, is more about that transcendence, leaving the body, stuff like that, but maybe also about being alone. Another thing that fascinates me (and I believe the movie captured it) is the nighttime, night life, walking on the street at night, looking at all the lights, kinda makes me forget stuff and helps me get into that first level of meditation (I believe it's called the alpha state), where your mind stops thinking and you just observe, hear the sounds, feel the wind, maybe slightly chilly, and suddenly everything feels brighter and more clear, like I'm suddenly putting on some ultra HD glasses.
I have to agree that once you're good at doing something, it definitely feels good when you do it. So obviously, you keep at it and become even better. That's me with figure drawing.
But the problem is instead of going further each time, expanding, I just sat there and kept drawing in that comfort zone.
Since I've done so many characters and studied so much, it wouldn't make any sense to try something completely different. So, instead, I wanna try incorporate some design elements bit by bit, just enough so it wouldn't become a pain. Having that as a goal, I imagine at some point I'll be able to create an illustration that is good enough to get me hired by Paizo or a similar company.
Unfortunately, I decided that the Patreon has to wait a while longer.