Toxicpanda's Death Note

[Toxicpanda]

@Fedodika you are 100000% right. I lack the most importat thing- foundations. I know how to make things pretty and stand out. Keep with the very simple composition and balance colors. But- when it comes to drawing something without reference, or having any knowledge behind it- well, that's where I'm stuck at. My biggest problem is and was time.

Ever since I started digitally painting I was always lacking time. At first- I was trying to learn how to make images look pretty as fast as I can so I can do commissions, so I can buy computer and start learning. After I bought computer I had to do more commissions, earn money, pay off college and move to other city. After that I got a job in a studio, started learning 3D, and ever since I've been focusing mostly on 3D stuff. Luckily- I do anatomy there quite a lot- as all I've been working for the past 2 years is 8h a day in zbrush and other programes working on characters, creatures and clothes. (can't wait to show that). I even bought laptop that I can draw on , but never had the comfort of drawing on it so it's basicly used for watching anime. After getting back from work I would be too tired to even get myself up from the bed and couldn't draw at all. (thyroid issues) That made me even more depressed and it made my fight for learning fail miserably.

But now, I'm going to buy new computer again because I tortured my old one as much as I could and work on my 3D skills even more and hopefully, slowly get my butt off comfort zone and start with anatomy sketches-not just 3D. I started going to gym and first week was horrible. Now I'm on fourth week and I feel amazing. I feel like I have more energy after work so I want to use that to draw and learn.

I must say anatomy in 3D is so much easier. I feel like I know already a lot and learning is so much easier because you can balance your form from any angle. In drawing it's harder- every line is making so much impact on final result. I guess I'm just scardycat. I have to stop making excuses and start learning.

Thank you so so much for your support and help. I'll follow your advice and start with those. I already have books. I just have to get up on my feet again.

And scan my sketchbook Q_Q

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