03-30-2021, 10:54 AM
I don't know if this is possible for you, but your long running obsession with getting a job is imo a large part of the ongoing issues you appear to have with your journey and causes you to second guess almost everything constantly.
Can you just chill out on that for a bit? Is this possible for you, to do some art without it being always about an imaginary job, the nature of which you seem to have many firmly held assumptions about but no actual experience of.
Can you just do some original design work in the present, for the simple pleasure of doing so and finish it to a clear quality that you would be very happy with achieving, for yourself, not for some imaginary team or company in your mind? Just once, try it.
Can you just chill out on that for a bit? Is this possible for you, to do some art without it being always about an imaginary job, the nature of which you seem to have many firmly held assumptions about but no actual experience of.
Can you just do some original design work in the present, for the simple pleasure of doing so and finish it to a clear quality that you would be very happy with achieving, for yourself, not for some imaginary team or company in your mind? Just once, try it.