Walent's sketchbook

[walent]

One of those moments again, I though I've evolved enough to avoid them, but guess not. I think I'm just gonna take a break from doing art. Nothing works these days. I'm trying to paint a portrait and it's like I'm having two left hands. I can't even get a decent line sketch done. And I'm also out of money, badly. I'm really struggling here.
I'm so angry with myself right now, I feel I should just quit doing anything else, quit eating, quit sleeping and paint until I'm satisfied with my work. But unfortunately I just can't do that.

I'm having a lot of web/logo designs and vector illustrations requests so maybe I'll just go do those for a while... I don't know, it's been two years since I started doing digital art and still the only art projects I get are those without payment. That's very demoralizing... no one should EVER request that from an artist!

I see more and more 16-17 year old artists that have an incredibly awesome style and they clearly know which way to go, and I'm turning 26 soon and I'm not even satisfied with my painting style yet, I have a lot of doubts and I ask myself everyday if I should stick to environments or should I go into characters and vehicles too. I still don't have the answer to that.

Today I was 2 seconds away from being actually erased by a retarded taxi driver who chose to ignore the traffic signs and just speed through the intersection without even looking. I saw his face for 2 seconds, he didn't even turn his head, I just couldn't believe it.
That kind of stuff marks you for life...
Those kind of people shouldn't be allowed to live on this planet...