Crackbook

[crackedskull]

Thanks Nestergen


Day 9: 6h done
Day 10: 3.5h done

Total score: 51.5/60h done

Seeing this http://www.drawger.com/holland/?article_id=15400
made me kind of unmotivated and stressed out, my thoughts became nihilistic(lets just leave it at that).

This has happened to me before aswell, I just tend to mull over certain issues and news and the worst case outcomes they bring. Good thing is I figure out what I do when it hits and accept the circumstances. Bad thing, its a depressing train of thoughts. I've seen a lot of depressing news on the internet and it does get me down, however recovering from the fallback makes me mentally stronger and more knowledgeable.

Recently checked out the first pages of my SB and got reminded of the extatic feeling I had when I did my first digital paintings. Due to a cognitive bias I tend to forget the feelings caused by various hardships in the past. I know that when I was starting out it there was a lot of frustration, but there really were moments where I felt really happy. Ive forgotten the feeling of the stressful parts, but retained the good feelings when I recall the memories.

Gonna try again, Im also making some small adjustments.
Tomorrow is organizing day. I'll organize my references, make general plans for the next goal and search for more references for ongoing illustrations. I'll also do 3h of art to keep some kind of momentum going.
After that Im gonna try to do 60h in 10 days again.
Also I will disconnect from the internet while Im drawing from now on, another small improvement I'll apply is placing my phone a couple of meters away, since I still tend to browse internet from there when my computer isnt connected.