02-22-2016, 03:11 AM
It won't matter what advice we give you, because you are the only one who knows the answer to the question. You are out here looking for the answer but it's the wrong place to look. It's in you. You just have to listen close enough.
As Piotr said, you can focus on one thing and then do another later down the line. Or keep trying to find a way to split it so that it works for you in some way.
For me, I wrote, I did music, I coded, I drew. I animated, and I was unfocused and got nowhere fast with anythign.
I wanted / want to do it all at some point, but I chose to focus on the art for a while. Now that I am pretty much full time on the art, I am starting to think about the others again. I have dabble in all during that time still as well, just not as much. There is absolutely no reason why choosing one at one point means you are giving up on it. It just means your attention isn't on it for now. There is nothing to say you can't enjoy drawing for it's own sake, while focusing predominantly on writing. It's not so serious. Give yourself some latitude because there is no finality in life...except perhaps in death, so just make sure that whatever you are doing feels right for you, at this moment.
To me just reading between the lines, it seems like writing is really your main thing, but as I said before, only you know the real answer to it. Something I have done that has helped is to meditate (or just sit quietly with yourself and calm down all the mental noise on pros/cons) for a few minutes and focus on stillness not thinking about this. Then in a moment of great stillness and little-to-no thought, pose the question to yourself "Should I focus on art or writing?". You can even say it out loud. Then just pause and listen to yourself, rather than try to reason your way to the answer.
Often, and surprisingly, the answer comes up strong as a feeling, no thought involved. This is your intuition. Learn to listen to yourself, learn to tap into it and begin to trust yourself more. I think the more you practice, the better you get at it, like any skill. You asked for help on "how to make up my mind". Funny thing I have always thought about that expression, is that thought more often than not gets in our way and hinders us, so it's not your mind you have to make up, it's getting your mind out of the way that will help you!!
I have used the technique myself and it has worked for me. Give it a shot! Ultimately you are the only one who can choose what to do. And this might not ring true, but more likely than not the choice has already been made, you just haven't surfaced it or acted it out yet because your mind is getting in the way.
Oh and if I were you I'd really consider thinking deeply on this idea of "having a purpose" or doing what you are "meant" to do. I truly believe we have no purpose. We act on our impulse and our history and the things that happen around us. There is nothing to suggest any of it has any hidden meaning behind it. If you want to find out your purpose, live well until the moment you die. And in the moments before your death assuming you aren't hit by something sudden, you will probably understand that purpose has no real meaning except as a means to justify existence and come to terms with the fear of our own mortality.
As Piotr said, you can focus on one thing and then do another later down the line. Or keep trying to find a way to split it so that it works for you in some way.
For me, I wrote, I did music, I coded, I drew. I animated, and I was unfocused and got nowhere fast with anythign.
I wanted / want to do it all at some point, but I chose to focus on the art for a while. Now that I am pretty much full time on the art, I am starting to think about the others again. I have dabble in all during that time still as well, just not as much. There is absolutely no reason why choosing one at one point means you are giving up on it. It just means your attention isn't on it for now. There is nothing to say you can't enjoy drawing for it's own sake, while focusing predominantly on writing. It's not so serious. Give yourself some latitude because there is no finality in life...except perhaps in death, so just make sure that whatever you are doing feels right for you, at this moment.
To me just reading between the lines, it seems like writing is really your main thing, but as I said before, only you know the real answer to it. Something I have done that has helped is to meditate (or just sit quietly with yourself and calm down all the mental noise on pros/cons) for a few minutes and focus on stillness not thinking about this. Then in a moment of great stillness and little-to-no thought, pose the question to yourself "Should I focus on art or writing?". You can even say it out loud. Then just pause and listen to yourself, rather than try to reason your way to the answer.
Often, and surprisingly, the answer comes up strong as a feeling, no thought involved. This is your intuition. Learn to listen to yourself, learn to tap into it and begin to trust yourself more. I think the more you practice, the better you get at it, like any skill. You asked for help on "how to make up my mind". Funny thing I have always thought about that expression, is that thought more often than not gets in our way and hinders us, so it's not your mind you have to make up, it's getting your mind out of the way that will help you!!
I have used the technique myself and it has worked for me. Give it a shot! Ultimately you are the only one who can choose what to do. And this might not ring true, but more likely than not the choice has already been made, you just haven't surfaced it or acted it out yet because your mind is getting in the way.
Oh and if I were you I'd really consider thinking deeply on this idea of "having a purpose" or doing what you are "meant" to do. I truly believe we have no purpose. We act on our impulse and our history and the things that happen around us. There is nothing to suggest any of it has any hidden meaning behind it. If you want to find out your purpose, live well until the moment you die. And in the moments before your death assuming you aren't hit by something sudden, you will probably understand that purpose has no real meaning except as a means to justify existence and come to terms with the fear of our own mortality.