11-14-2014, 10:28 AM
Guys, I want to express my deepest gratitude to all of you, for sharing your experiences and life stories. I was hesitating for a few days to put the original post on Forums, 'cause I thought that people would make fun of it, as it doesn't make any sense and comes weird. But now, seeing how big it grew, man I'm just shocked... Thank you guys!
Job wise...For the last 5 years I do art related stuff for Social Media browser games. And to be honest - I'm not happy at where I'm at. It pays totally enough, more then I need, so I even tend to protract deadlines in order to work less hours, but it’s not me… I can’t wait, drawing cucumbers, chicken eggs and funky elephants for Happy Farm 3 hours a day, and when I’m finally finished, I feel like I’m accelerating from the high hill and jumping from the pier into an abysm lake, full of my own worlds and dreams. I grab a pen and start doing my shit… Now I recall why I love this so much… I’m not mad at my clients, I can’t be. ‘Cause you can’t be man at people for just not sharing your vision. They are kind enough to let me and many other artists to work on their worlds and get paid for that, put food on a tables. There are millions of people who enjoy the worlds they create. Just not me…
The Fear.
I want to try a new kind of jobs, I want to do art for Indie Games, Table Top RPG’s, Card Board Games etc. And I’m frightened… I know I quote Dan Warren too much, but I remember he’s saying “The Job I always dreamed about - Doesn’t Exist”. I’m not sure, I can’t be sure, but I’m afraid – it’s true. ‘Cause think of this, if you approached by “X” publisher and you’re asked to do an art for their Story Telling RPG, and you getting paid for that… Who’s Lake with all this dreams and worlds you wandering into? Is it yours? No, you not the one behind the steering wheel wheel. And what is more frightening – what if there s too many cooks in the kitchen? This story is not yours, therefore you just a tool, which used to paint their visions… This is not fun. I know that sound really pessimistic but I try not to build too many hopes for myself, just not to be disappointed.
I hope I’m wrong
Sorry for the book.
Job wise...For the last 5 years I do art related stuff for Social Media browser games. And to be honest - I'm not happy at where I'm at. It pays totally enough, more then I need, so I even tend to protract deadlines in order to work less hours, but it’s not me… I can’t wait, drawing cucumbers, chicken eggs and funky elephants for Happy Farm 3 hours a day, and when I’m finally finished, I feel like I’m accelerating from the high hill and jumping from the pier into an abysm lake, full of my own worlds and dreams. I grab a pen and start doing my shit… Now I recall why I love this so much… I’m not mad at my clients, I can’t be. ‘Cause you can’t be man at people for just not sharing your vision. They are kind enough to let me and many other artists to work on their worlds and get paid for that, put food on a tables. There are millions of people who enjoy the worlds they create. Just not me…
The Fear.
I want to try a new kind of jobs, I want to do art for Indie Games, Table Top RPG’s, Card Board Games etc. And I’m frightened… I know I quote Dan Warren too much, but I remember he’s saying “The Job I always dreamed about - Doesn’t Exist”. I’m not sure, I can’t be sure, but I’m afraid – it’s true. ‘Cause think of this, if you approached by “X” publisher and you’re asked to do an art for their Story Telling RPG, and you getting paid for that… Who’s Lake with all this dreams and worlds you wandering into? Is it yours? No, you not the one behind the steering wheel wheel. And what is more frightening – what if there s too many cooks in the kitchen? This story is not yours, therefore you just a tool, which used to paint their visions… This is not fun. I know that sound really pessimistic but I try not to build too many hopes for myself, just not to be disappointed.
I hope I’m wrong
Sorry for the book.