12-16-2013, 06:15 AM
Having a very difficult time lately. I just can't seem to get into the zone or make myself study.
I fell out of the habit of doing so because of how much I have to worry about in regards to my financial situation. I have to focus so much on getting a job or making money that I can't sit down in peace. When my mind is stressed to the point of physical discomfort I can't focus on painting-- my mental/emotional state must be in harmony, or else I'm better off doing anything but trying to take art seriously or make good images.
I've developed a minor guilt complex when painting...There's always a little voice in my head telling me that I should be doing something besides trying to get better at painting, because at the moment painting isn't netting me any work or $$$. I feel borderline valueless as an artist...This pattern has to be broken before it gets any worse.
The solution is just to get a shitty job slinging coffee or something and then come back and study harder than ever until I can work for Paizo, WOTC, Applibot, or an individual with personal projects.
Sorry for writing so much. Here are some things I've managed to eek out from the past few days + some traditional studies/sketches from when I was feeling better. I have to stop feeling sorry for myself--it's the biggest saboteur of success.
I fell out of the habit of doing so because of how much I have to worry about in regards to my financial situation. I have to focus so much on getting a job or making money that I can't sit down in peace. When my mind is stressed to the point of physical discomfort I can't focus on painting-- my mental/emotional state must be in harmony, or else I'm better off doing anything but trying to take art seriously or make good images.
I've developed a minor guilt complex when painting...There's always a little voice in my head telling me that I should be doing something besides trying to get better at painting, because at the moment painting isn't netting me any work or $$$. I feel borderline valueless as an artist...This pattern has to be broken before it gets any worse.
The solution is just to get a shitty job slinging coffee or something and then come back and study harder than ever until I can work for Paizo, WOTC, Applibot, or an individual with personal projects.
Sorry for writing so much. Here are some things I've managed to eek out from the past few days + some traditional studies/sketches from when I was feeling better. I have to stop feeling sorry for myself--it's the biggest saboteur of success.
