03-21-2015, 05:41 AM
Thank you oh thank you to crimson daggers , to the people in it and the internet.
this thread is a godsend for me.
really some thought provoking stuff here.
ill try to share my story , and sorry for errors because english is my 2nd language and im currently shaking from my anxiety attacks, but here it goes:
i abruptly stopped going to college sometime in 2013 due to financial difficulties, it was only the 1st semester and i was taking a course that is Information technology, at that time i didnt know much about concept art , but thought of going through with that field would reap in good $$$ as IT is one of the highly paid jobs here in the Philippines.
Months has been spent being a "tambay" a filipino word of a lazy stay at home, unemployed guy who doesnt do anything in the world except sleep eat shower. but in my case i played video games. making this story short, i get to a point in my life where i experienced existential crisis, i am 19. i started to think deep about my future. and what i really wanted to do in life. then i found concept art.
i started taking this seriously at the beginning of 2014, though i think my knowledge about the industry is not that much since today, i was driven by motivation at that time to a point where i was drawing everyday. up until now 1 year later. i deprived myself of any human interaction since i stopped going to college. it has resulted into severe consequences, as i feel i have had gotten a social anxiety disorder. i have just been researching about this on jan 2015 , when im starting to realize that i have a hard time talking to people that i just get sweaty and stuff.
its because of the sheer desire of getting good fast , that i have given myself this lifestyle where i developed some kind of an illness is something to think about.
i know its a little bit unfair to be here and say im having a hard time , especially when you guys have much more of a grim situation starting out compared to mine.
but i just like to say that sadly , we all just have to go through that horrible phase in life and come out 200 times better.
i have watched a documentary called happy , and its all about the science of happiness. one thing that struck me the most is. there are 2 different kinds of goals ,extrinsic and intrinsic. extrinsic being , fame , money . personal image. intrinsic -establishing relationships , helping other people/contributing to society, and personal growth/being who you want to be.
to me intrinsic is the way to go.
so to sum this up , where not doing all of this just because of money or becoming famous. we do this because we LOVE doing it. its already a privilege drawing and get paid to do so. but when it gets to the point where you dont like the work aspect of it. dont fret, dont get bogged down. it just how the world works. and you just need to be strong and do it.
anyways sorry if all of this doesnt make sense but let me just thank all of you guys for inspiring me , and for sharing the bad experiences youve had on your journey so that it doesnt happen to us. i really appreciate that. you guys will be forever in my debt. because im never gonna realize all of this teachings if i had never been on this site, on this thread, with you guys. so thank you...
i apologize for being so cheesy and dramatic . just couldnt contain myself. i hope i can meet you guys in real life someday. yeah this is getting weird im gonna stop.
this thread is a godsend for me.
really some thought provoking stuff here.
ill try to share my story , and sorry for errors because english is my 2nd language and im currently shaking from my anxiety attacks, but here it goes:
i abruptly stopped going to college sometime in 2013 due to financial difficulties, it was only the 1st semester and i was taking a course that is Information technology, at that time i didnt know much about concept art , but thought of going through with that field would reap in good $$$ as IT is one of the highly paid jobs here in the Philippines.
Months has been spent being a "tambay" a filipino word of a lazy stay at home, unemployed guy who doesnt do anything in the world except sleep eat shower. but in my case i played video games. making this story short, i get to a point in my life where i experienced existential crisis, i am 19. i started to think deep about my future. and what i really wanted to do in life. then i found concept art.
i started taking this seriously at the beginning of 2014, though i think my knowledge about the industry is not that much since today, i was driven by motivation at that time to a point where i was drawing everyday. up until now 1 year later. i deprived myself of any human interaction since i stopped going to college. it has resulted into severe consequences, as i feel i have had gotten a social anxiety disorder. i have just been researching about this on jan 2015 , when im starting to realize that i have a hard time talking to people that i just get sweaty and stuff.
its because of the sheer desire of getting good fast , that i have given myself this lifestyle where i developed some kind of an illness is something to think about.
i know its a little bit unfair to be here and say im having a hard time , especially when you guys have much more of a grim situation starting out compared to mine.
but i just like to say that sadly , we all just have to go through that horrible phase in life and come out 200 times better.
i have watched a documentary called happy , and its all about the science of happiness. one thing that struck me the most is. there are 2 different kinds of goals ,extrinsic and intrinsic. extrinsic being , fame , money . personal image. intrinsic -establishing relationships , helping other people/contributing to society, and personal growth/being who you want to be.
to me intrinsic is the way to go.
so to sum this up , where not doing all of this just because of money or becoming famous. we do this because we LOVE doing it. its already a privilege drawing and get paid to do so. but when it gets to the point where you dont like the work aspect of it. dont fret, dont get bogged down. it just how the world works. and you just need to be strong and do it.
anyways sorry if all of this doesnt make sense but let me just thank all of you guys for inspiring me , and for sharing the bad experiences youve had on your journey so that it doesnt happen to us. i really appreciate that. you guys will be forever in my debt. because im never gonna realize all of this teachings if i had never been on this site, on this thread, with you guys. so thank you...
i apologize for being so cheesy and dramatic . just couldnt contain myself. i hope i can meet you guys in real life someday. yeah this is getting weird im gonna stop.