My "Dream Job" destroyed my life.
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(02-24-2016, 03:24 PM)Lodratio Wrote: 'Scrum adopts an empirical approach—accepting that the problem cannot be fully understood or defined, focusing instead on maximizing the team's ability to deliver quickly, to respond to emerging requirements'

I'm going to make a guess and say that your boss probably read that as: 'Predicting where problems may occur and reacting to them ahead of time is a form of planning, so forget that. People can't really  plan ahead, they think they can, but actually the best thing you can do is try to dodge bullets at the last possible moment.'

Sounds like your boss is a postmodernist and doesn't know what he's doing. If that's what's going on here it explains most if not all of the problems you are having. This kind of approach sounds tempting if you've never tried to apply it to a real problem because of the freedom it promises, and it's true that completely structured systems are rigid and you can't easily make changes at later stages if you rely on them, but systems without a structure just fall apart halfway throughout construction, unless you induce them with the structure called 'knowing what you are doing'. The nice thing about systems that impose a structure on your approach is that they take away part of that burden from you.
You can apply this concept to art as well: A lot of highly skilled artists don't have a structured approach to painting, but as a beginner you need  those structures to be able to learn, and you're reliant on them until you've internalized their underlying logic. Sure, it's restricting, but you can't skip the internalization process and jump straight to doing whatever the hell you feel like.

As for your question: Obviously, if you need the money you can just keep going, but you don't seem to be all too happy with your situation, and finding meaning in what you do isn't just healthy, it's also pretty important to progressing as an artist. If you feel like you aren't enjoying art because of your job, and perhaps even stagnating, you may want to prioritize your wellbeing and your love for art over your financial situation.

Hope I got across what I'm trying to say, and it makes at least a little bit of sense. If it doesn't feel free to disregard it.


Thank you for you comments.  

In my attempts to structure things I've always tried to keep the goal of creating something that could be built upon and evolved, but had a solid core to fall back on.  As an artist I feel like the scrum method leads to a lot of wasted assets that aren't going to be useful later, and thus a waste of my time.   I am definitely still a beginner, and not having clear direction or limits, having "pretty much anything imaginable" be a possibility at any given point has been really paralyzing to me in coming up with anything.  My boss clearly wants to let community feedback dictate the direction of the game (this is what he tried to do with the kickstarter), and I'm left trying to figure out how to respond to that, having no say in how it effects me as the artist.

I have an opportunity to move to Seattle and stay rent free with a friend for a while, I'm hoping that this will give me time to come to terms with this job not working out and figure out what I really want to do.
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My "Dream Job" destroyed my life. - by FactofMyth - 02-24-2016, 12:11 PM
RE: My "Dream Job" destroyed my life. - by FactofMyth - 02-24-2016, 04:45 PM

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