07-15-2026, 08:25 AM
Hi there, is great connecting with you all!
I don't really remember where exactly I learned about the Crimson Dagger Forums, but I saw some users that were from the old CGTalk Forums, that's probably where it came from... I don't know.
The truth is that I always wanted to be an artist, but life got in the way and I became an Accountant, then a Programmer and soon I'll be a Data Scientist without ever being able to become a true artist.
My desire to become capable of translating my ideas into drawings came from early childhood. I had a grandfather who was some sort of genius, a self-taught artist who could draw awesome stuff from imagination during times when references weren't easily available as they are nowadays. It's a shame that we didn't kept a single one of his works, he made it look like it was easy, but after many attempts from my side, I know what he did was different. There was no construction whatsoever, it was pure delineation, and trying to mimic the way he did it cost me a long time and caused a lot of frustration...
Then came the color-blindness diagnosis, it was one of or THE final blow to my dream of ever becoming an artist, that means I would never be able to communicate my feelings to an audience trough colors, because I'm simply unable to see the same colors as them. That's kind of true, but there's studies that says that different people see different colors, depending whether you have a word for such color or not, if you're male or female, if your mental health is in good state or even if you've been blessed with Tetrachromacy...
Now all creative professionals are facing the absurdity of AI, and I'm sure the artist community have been hit hard, but I wasn't following, all I remember was the protest on ArtStation with all artists posting the same image of "No image" or something like that on ArtStation... I personally don't care if a machine is going to steal my work, I'm so rusty that I'll have to start it over, and for a while it should probably suck real bad, probably I'll make the models worse.
In fact, what the f* happened?
I stopped studying CG to focus on my career as a programmer (I changed careers around 2018), and many artist communities simply disappeared, I feel like a homeless person now...
Well, at least this time I'm able to properly communicate, I hope I can make some friends while getting better as an artist, that's all that there is for me at this point and for a change, this time it seems enough.
I don't really remember where exactly I learned about the Crimson Dagger Forums, but I saw some users that were from the old CGTalk Forums, that's probably where it came from... I don't know.
The truth is that I always wanted to be an artist, but life got in the way and I became an Accountant, then a Programmer and soon I'll be a Data Scientist without ever being able to become a true artist.
My desire to become capable of translating my ideas into drawings came from early childhood. I had a grandfather who was some sort of genius, a self-taught artist who could draw awesome stuff from imagination during times when references weren't easily available as they are nowadays. It's a shame that we didn't kept a single one of his works, he made it look like it was easy, but after many attempts from my side, I know what he did was different. There was no construction whatsoever, it was pure delineation, and trying to mimic the way he did it cost me a long time and caused a lot of frustration...
Then came the color-blindness diagnosis, it was one of or THE final blow to my dream of ever becoming an artist, that means I would never be able to communicate my feelings to an audience trough colors, because I'm simply unable to see the same colors as them. That's kind of true, but there's studies that says that different people see different colors, depending whether you have a word for such color or not, if you're male or female, if your mental health is in good state or even if you've been blessed with Tetrachromacy...
Now all creative professionals are facing the absurdity of AI, and I'm sure the artist community have been hit hard, but I wasn't following, all I remember was the protest on ArtStation with all artists posting the same image of "No image" or something like that on ArtStation... I personally don't care if a machine is going to steal my work, I'm so rusty that I'll have to start it over, and for a while it should probably suck real bad, probably I'll make the models worse.
In fact, what the f* happened?
I stopped studying CG to focus on my career as a programmer (I changed careers around 2018), and many artist communities simply disappeared, I feel like a homeless person now...
Well, at least this time I'm able to properly communicate, I hope I can make some friends while getting better as an artist, that's all that there is for me at this point and for a change, this time it seems enough.