05-28-2014, 09:00 PM
Well I think we all do the compare and strive thing even when we are enjoying it. I thought I had it handled, but then I realised that you have to give up the hope of making it and just do work for its own sake. Anything else is just extra crap you don't need.
Don't get me wrong, in the last 2 years I enjoyed the heck out of almost every piece, but there was always an underlying theme of desire to improve and the impact on the future state no matter how much I enjoyed it. Also when you do it for long enough it sometimes isn't enough to just do it when you consistently get "nowhere" closer to your goals, and that is what I'm cutting out. The fear, frustration and the desire. Also the idea that each piece is a step on the way to something. I don't believe it should be. Each piece should be what it is for the moment it was created, and that is all. :) I know who cares right...but to me the difference is huge.
Art is not meditation for me. I made it too much of a big deal in my life already and that was the problem to start with. Maybe some pieces allow you to flow enough to be only focused on the present stroke to stroke, but these pieces tend to be rare. They do also end up being your best work often times. Goes to show something I guess. :)
Don't get me wrong, in the last 2 years I enjoyed the heck out of almost every piece, but there was always an underlying theme of desire to improve and the impact on the future state no matter how much I enjoyed it. Also when you do it for long enough it sometimes isn't enough to just do it when you consistently get "nowhere" closer to your goals, and that is what I'm cutting out. The fear, frustration and the desire. Also the idea that each piece is a step on the way to something. I don't believe it should be. Each piece should be what it is for the moment it was created, and that is all. :) I know who cares right...but to me the difference is huge.
Art is not meditation for me. I made it too much of a big deal in my life already and that was the problem to start with. Maybe some pieces allow you to flow enough to be only focused on the present stroke to stroke, but these pieces tend to be rare. They do also end up being your best work often times. Goes to show something I guess. :)