05-19-2014, 09:59 AM
Thanks guys:)
monkeybread - indeed:)
about the "zen" - well, I am into it, but I must disclaim here that I use the term as a slang term in a much broader sense, so it pretty much encompasses everything which has to do with well being and psychological and spiritual calmness - from jung and campbell, carl rogers or berne, conventional psychology, through new age chit chat, awareness, mindfulness, present moment, non-worry etc. all to zen, dao and all that stuff:) I mean, it basically comes to a single practice/theory when you compare all of that to each other. So, basically, when I say "zen", I mean an emotionally stable, fully mature "heroe's journey" kinda guy:)
And, as it usually goes, my "zen theory" is pretty strong (being extremely and actively interested in psychology and philosophy for about more than half of my life), but my practice is lacking:)
Which brings me to your point about challenge and opportunity. Having found out that I am anxious with extremely "jumpy nervous system", and at the same time having found out that I have slight cholesterol and liver problems actually did good for me, as my immature mind seemed to interpreted it as the official black on white that I have to actually turn my lifestyle upside down, both physically and mentally/spiritually/psychologically. Fortunately, I do know some stuff, so only that's left is the actual application, which is being put into effect for a couple of months already, steady as she goes:)
So, actually, yes, in that sense, it is fortunate I've got my blood tested (for entirely different reasons) and went to the doctor in the first place.
But, as I'm far from being full zen master, this hand thing does get to me:) So, in a non-zen techincal "rl" world the situation is annoying, to say the least:) Not to mention the doctors' vanity, deafness to what the patient is saying etc. I think that the rigidity they've been taught hurts the medical practice the most. Now, I understand the reasoning behind it - go by the book and there would probably be less errors. But, it borders on stupidity almost all the time. if you have the human factor - use it. for example, my old man had a heart attack and prior to that he had some chest pains and pulse fluctuations. so he went to the cardiologist (a good one) and said something like "my pulse has been x and now is y", the doctor asked for how long, he responed "for two weeks" and the doctor immediately said "impossible". and that was that. and later he got heart attack:)
I thought about acupuncture, it's on my "list" along with magnetotherapy, other neurologists/physicians for a second opinion, chiropractic, raw food diet etc:) The problem is, the doctors convinced me that the tests are 100% infallible and that I have mildest of mildest neuropathy with no possibility for nerve entrapment or damage, so, just slight irritation in the nerve root in the neck. and it would "surely" go away after like five pt. and then i went to fifteen and it's still the same. and after that i had the neurologist (who is a relatively esteemed professor of neurology or something like that - i don't know what it's called in english, the dude above the dudes with just college, md perhaps?) swear to me that I do not have nerve issues regarding my hand.
And those stuff happen. there's no point in me going there and yell at the staff or something:D nor there is point in brooding over it (there's that zen:) ), but the, how should I put it, physical reality, is that I don't have the money right now to go see specialists or practitioners. the sureness of doctors and their instruments and their approach were like i came to them with something ten times less serious and complicated than, for example, runny nose. so i was like "ok, this is the standardest of standard things (which they did tell me in fact), lets get this over with, shut up and take my money". and it is a respectable clinic, might I add:)
So, acupuncture and everything else would have to wait. In the meantime, I am left with google and general bettering of my life and I'll see how it goes. I can buy smaller stuff that might work (splints or supplements etc) and can do stretches from youtube, regulate what I eat etc. and that's it for now. At least, the hand doesn't seem to get any worse. The downside of all that is that, of course, bunch of stuff, exercises and advice go against each other, which could be extremely dangerous, as I'm dealing with nerves and stuff, which are a bit touchy. On the other side, there's a lot of stuff everybody agrees upon.
And yes, after educating myself a bit about all that stuff, it really does seem that the whole area is poorly researched, sadly.
so i have to do the trial and error stuff, and to be more interesting, these types of things are slooooow, so even if i stumble upon something good, it would show after like three months. and the same goes for the bad stuff:)
angelique:
emg isn't that scary - well, it's not exactly pleasant, but i wouldn't have problem with taking it again, for example. some sets of shocks are indeed relatively strong (you feel the punch pretty good and your arm goes in the air and stuff, and there's like tens of those) and the needles are a bit unpleasant (but not more than any other needle), but everything else is literally nothing. by that i mean that the whole procedure might take for example half an hour, but the unpleasant part of it lasts like five minutes. and it's not that unpleasant, it's just "weirdly unpleasant".
ursula:
will do and thank you:D
lyraina:
hug back:D
i don't know. i'm taking it slowly. i'll see can i go with these 30-90 mins a day croquis-ish stuff and try to gradually do more. i mean, tricky part is that changes are slow in either direction, so i have to test things for like twenty days before even having the slightest chance at assessing the results. the other part of trickiness is that i can actually do pretty much everything (well, not literally, but yeah) if i go through the pain. i mean, i could sit right now and draw viciously with inhuman pressure sensitivity setting for ten hours, i can do it mechanically. i don't think that's a good idea though:D
so i have to make micro decisions all the time, how much pain is "pain" and how much pain is beneficial workout etc.
ok, this was another scribbomaniacal outburst, but this one was a bit more deliberate, to see how i'll wake up tomorrow. not the brightest test, but well, i'm not the brightest person:DDD
monkeybread - indeed:)
about the "zen" - well, I am into it, but I must disclaim here that I use the term as a slang term in a much broader sense, so it pretty much encompasses everything which has to do with well being and psychological and spiritual calmness - from jung and campbell, carl rogers or berne, conventional psychology, through new age chit chat, awareness, mindfulness, present moment, non-worry etc. all to zen, dao and all that stuff:) I mean, it basically comes to a single practice/theory when you compare all of that to each other. So, basically, when I say "zen", I mean an emotionally stable, fully mature "heroe's journey" kinda guy:)
And, as it usually goes, my "zen theory" is pretty strong (being extremely and actively interested in psychology and philosophy for about more than half of my life), but my practice is lacking:)
Which brings me to your point about challenge and opportunity. Having found out that I am anxious with extremely "jumpy nervous system", and at the same time having found out that I have slight cholesterol and liver problems actually did good for me, as my immature mind seemed to interpreted it as the official black on white that I have to actually turn my lifestyle upside down, both physically and mentally/spiritually/psychologically. Fortunately, I do know some stuff, so only that's left is the actual application, which is being put into effect for a couple of months already, steady as she goes:)
So, actually, yes, in that sense, it is fortunate I've got my blood tested (for entirely different reasons) and went to the doctor in the first place.
But, as I'm far from being full zen master, this hand thing does get to me:) So, in a non-zen techincal "rl" world the situation is annoying, to say the least:) Not to mention the doctors' vanity, deafness to what the patient is saying etc. I think that the rigidity they've been taught hurts the medical practice the most. Now, I understand the reasoning behind it - go by the book and there would probably be less errors. But, it borders on stupidity almost all the time. if you have the human factor - use it. for example, my old man had a heart attack and prior to that he had some chest pains and pulse fluctuations. so he went to the cardiologist (a good one) and said something like "my pulse has been x and now is y", the doctor asked for how long, he responed "for two weeks" and the doctor immediately said "impossible". and that was that. and later he got heart attack:)
I thought about acupuncture, it's on my "list" along with magnetotherapy, other neurologists/physicians for a second opinion, chiropractic, raw food diet etc:) The problem is, the doctors convinced me that the tests are 100% infallible and that I have mildest of mildest neuropathy with no possibility for nerve entrapment or damage, so, just slight irritation in the nerve root in the neck. and it would "surely" go away after like five pt. and then i went to fifteen and it's still the same. and after that i had the neurologist (who is a relatively esteemed professor of neurology or something like that - i don't know what it's called in english, the dude above the dudes with just college, md perhaps?) swear to me that I do not have nerve issues regarding my hand.
And those stuff happen. there's no point in me going there and yell at the staff or something:D nor there is point in brooding over it (there's that zen:) ), but the, how should I put it, physical reality, is that I don't have the money right now to go see specialists or practitioners. the sureness of doctors and their instruments and their approach were like i came to them with something ten times less serious and complicated than, for example, runny nose. so i was like "ok, this is the standardest of standard things (which they did tell me in fact), lets get this over with, shut up and take my money". and it is a respectable clinic, might I add:)
So, acupuncture and everything else would have to wait. In the meantime, I am left with google and general bettering of my life and I'll see how it goes. I can buy smaller stuff that might work (splints or supplements etc) and can do stretches from youtube, regulate what I eat etc. and that's it for now. At least, the hand doesn't seem to get any worse. The downside of all that is that, of course, bunch of stuff, exercises and advice go against each other, which could be extremely dangerous, as I'm dealing with nerves and stuff, which are a bit touchy. On the other side, there's a lot of stuff everybody agrees upon.
And yes, after educating myself a bit about all that stuff, it really does seem that the whole area is poorly researched, sadly.
so i have to do the trial and error stuff, and to be more interesting, these types of things are slooooow, so even if i stumble upon something good, it would show after like three months. and the same goes for the bad stuff:)
angelique:
emg isn't that scary - well, it's not exactly pleasant, but i wouldn't have problem with taking it again, for example. some sets of shocks are indeed relatively strong (you feel the punch pretty good and your arm goes in the air and stuff, and there's like tens of those) and the needles are a bit unpleasant (but not more than any other needle), but everything else is literally nothing. by that i mean that the whole procedure might take for example half an hour, but the unpleasant part of it lasts like five minutes. and it's not that unpleasant, it's just "weirdly unpleasant".
ursula:
will do and thank you:D
lyraina:
hug back:D
i don't know. i'm taking it slowly. i'll see can i go with these 30-90 mins a day croquis-ish stuff and try to gradually do more. i mean, tricky part is that changes are slow in either direction, so i have to test things for like twenty days before even having the slightest chance at assessing the results. the other part of trickiness is that i can actually do pretty much everything (well, not literally, but yeah) if i go through the pain. i mean, i could sit right now and draw viciously with inhuman pressure sensitivity setting for ten hours, i can do it mechanically. i don't think that's a good idea though:D
so i have to make micro decisions all the time, how much pain is "pain" and how much pain is beneficial workout etc.
ok, this was another scribbomaniacal outburst, but this one was a bit more deliberate, to see how i'll wake up tomorrow. not the brightest test, but well, i'm not the brightest person:DDD