09-13-2014, 08:26 AM
(kinda srs kinda not)
I don't know how serious of a post this is, but it's something i think about from time to time. I come from a place where people with ambitions, especially in creative fields, are essentially non-existent. So while i've been sitting here in my room practicing for 10+ hrs each day since like may of last year I started wondering about some things.
Like does this industry really exist? Are you typing avatars with names just figments of my imagination? I've had a mentor and sometimes i wonder if she's real. Does she really work in the industry, or is the industry real? And this professional level stuff, when i reach it will anyone care? Will i have just done all this work for nothing is my main concern. well at least i'll have some nice drawings to hang on my wall while i work at a fast food joint or sth.
But at the same time i miss a social life, though i've never had one; I'd like to know what one is haha. If i were comfortable, what would i be getting back too? Being even more alone in my own place? Are there other places in the world, really? Will someone online really pay me for my art some day? Is sex real? Hehe, i need
to get out more, but i don't really know what that means :).
Either this is all gonna work out or it's just a really mean joke!
I don't know how serious of a post this is, but it's something i think about from time to time. I come from a place where people with ambitions, especially in creative fields, are essentially non-existent. So while i've been sitting here in my room practicing for 10+ hrs each day since like may of last year I started wondering about some things.
Like does this industry really exist? Are you typing avatars with names just figments of my imagination? I've had a mentor and sometimes i wonder if she's real. Does she really work in the industry, or is the industry real? And this professional level stuff, when i reach it will anyone care? Will i have just done all this work for nothing is my main concern. well at least i'll have some nice drawings to hang on my wall while i work at a fast food joint or sth.
But at the same time i miss a social life, though i've never had one; I'd like to know what one is haha. If i were comfortable, what would i be getting back too? Being even more alone in my own place? Are there other places in the world, really? Will someone online really pay me for my art some day? Is sex real? Hehe, i need
to get out more, but i don't really know what that means :).
Either this is all gonna work out or it's just a really mean joke!
70+Page Koala Sketchbook: http://crimsondaggers.com/forum/thread-3465.html SB
Paintover thread, submit for crits! http://crimsondaggers.com/forum/thread-7879.html
[color=rgba(255, 255, 255, 0.882)]e owl sat on an oak. The more he saw, the less he spoke.[/color]
Paintover thread, submit for crits! http://crimsondaggers.com/forum/thread-7879.html
[color=rgba(255, 255, 255, 0.882)]e owl sat on an oak. The more he saw, the less he spoke.[/color]