01-23-2022, 11:27 AM
It's been a while since I've posted because there were a few thing I needed to take care of first. The first being my problem with creative perfectionism. When you know what good is and you're aware that what you make definitely isn't, it can be extremely discouraging. I'd also often lose my direction when studying and have a severe lack of confidence when it comes to committing to personal art.
I'd often look at my older sketchbooks from years ago and though I couldn't do what I could now, they looked better, somehow more confident. I could also draw for much longer (7 hrs at the least) and committing to something was much easier, even when I failed. I knew that if I could just figure out what I was doing back then, failure wouldn't effect my confident, regardless of the outcome. That and the the extra stamina would really help my progress.
I figured it out and it was simple, I only drew with a ballpoint pen. I had to commit to every line and if I wanted to do a complex sketch, I had to do it in layers, going from light to dark using pressure. It made it very easy to move on by not having the option to erase. Now I draw only in pen and that takes care of the lack confidence/perfectionism. To fix the direction issue, I keep a journal to write down what I'm doing for the day, along with whatever I've learned or could do better. Lastly, I work in Pomodoros with five minutes breaks in between, now I can study much longer. I've been doing this for nearly a month now, so I think it's safe to say that it works. I'm feelin pretty good about this year.
Anyway here's everything I've done since I stopped posting in late September. I never post my sketchbook pages. Didn't because I was too lazy to run the scanner and didn't think they were worth posting. There's no way it's gonna let me put these in order.
Alright, I'll shut up now.
I'd often look at my older sketchbooks from years ago and though I couldn't do what I could now, they looked better, somehow more confident. I could also draw for much longer (7 hrs at the least) and committing to something was much easier, even when I failed. I knew that if I could just figure out what I was doing back then, failure wouldn't effect my confident, regardless of the outcome. That and the the extra stamina would really help my progress.
I figured it out and it was simple, I only drew with a ballpoint pen. I had to commit to every line and if I wanted to do a complex sketch, I had to do it in layers, going from light to dark using pressure. It made it very easy to move on by not having the option to erase. Now I draw only in pen and that takes care of the lack confidence/perfectionism. To fix the direction issue, I keep a journal to write down what I'm doing for the day, along with whatever I've learned or could do better. Lastly, I work in Pomodoros with five minutes breaks in between, now I can study much longer. I've been doing this for nearly a month now, so I think it's safe to say that it works. I'm feelin pretty good about this year.
Anyway here's everything I've done since I stopped posting in late September. I never post my sketchbook pages. Didn't because I was too lazy to run the scanner and didn't think they were worth posting. There's no way it's gonna let me put these in order.
Alright, I'll shut up now.