01-05-2021, 03:39 PM
Playing with my gray tone markers here - mental note to actually organize these and not chuck them back into marker hell.
You ever just have those yuck days? My bitch back is my mental and figurative ex wife.
By the way, I'm not on any fast track to a career. This is purely my hobby - though calling it a hobby feels minimal, rather a path in my life, an escape to a place where I can throw my ideas out and they bounce back at me. My reason for wanting to get better isn't to impress or wow, it's more like learning a language for me and I want to be fluent. I want to be understood in this world and art has given me the means to do that. So no matter how much I toil and struggle through Loomis or any other study books, I know at the end of the day that I will understand it. Whether it takes days or months to take it in, I will do it. I just want to replicate the beauty of this world and have it translate through my ideas as best as possible. I want to be good at art because it makes me so happy to just do it and the more I understand, more I can do.
Would it be nice to do what I love? Of course! It isn't necessary though and seeing how oversaturated the art business is, I'll always keep an eye out. I'm fine with art consuming my life because it fills me with joy, not because I know it's leading to an opportunity. Without creating any art, there would be a large void in me - every facet of my life has something to do with art for me.
Anyways, that was my medicated rambles for tonight. Good night, sleep tight, don't let the bedbugs bite!
You ever just have those yuck days? My bitch back is my mental and figurative ex wife.
By the way, I'm not on any fast track to a career. This is purely my hobby - though calling it a hobby feels minimal, rather a path in my life, an escape to a place where I can throw my ideas out and they bounce back at me. My reason for wanting to get better isn't to impress or wow, it's more like learning a language for me and I want to be fluent. I want to be understood in this world and art has given me the means to do that. So no matter how much I toil and struggle through Loomis or any other study books, I know at the end of the day that I will understand it. Whether it takes days or months to take it in, I will do it. I just want to replicate the beauty of this world and have it translate through my ideas as best as possible. I want to be good at art because it makes me so happy to just do it and the more I understand, more I can do.
Would it be nice to do what I love? Of course! It isn't necessary though and seeing how oversaturated the art business is, I'll always keep an eye out. I'm fine with art consuming my life because it fills me with joy, not because I know it's leading to an opportunity. Without creating any art, there would be a large void in me - every facet of my life has something to do with art for me.
Anyways, that was my medicated rambles for tonight. Good night, sleep tight, don't let the bedbugs bite!