Back to the basics

[calebartist]

It honestly took a lot for me to just get back into it at all, since no one has ever really appreciated my work, and I've never had faith in myself. But I'll keep it in mind. I did those sorts of things for years, think of this sketchbook as every little drawing I do even the bad ones you'd do on lined paper or throw away. Maybe one day they'll mean something.

To know me , as an artist more is to know my past self not just the current me. The foster kid with big dreams who had to deal with the cruel hand life gave me, and pursued excellence relentlessly, in art, school and everything else. Only to overdo it in every sense of the word, struggle with health issues and come back from depression., all while having to struggle just to reach the starting point in life, with no one to truly guide me but myself.

Art is beautiful in that way though, it gave me a purpose even back then, who knows where I'd be now without it, It kept me going. You can share a little of your soul with one another, and it gives you other worlds to visit. 

I love art, it's like breathing, but I also have a difficult relationship with it because frankly I'm not talented at all. Sometimes it's easier not to care, than to care so much and feel like you'll never be enough, as long as you live. I'll keep pressing forward, but the old me who only saw a bright beautiful future, well he's older now and just taking it one day at a time.

[darktiste]

Care for it show you are alive. Care for it warm your hearth. At least care if no body will. Be caring is selflove.

Apathy lead to more apathy. There is no color in that world.

It is important to care about what you do because it directly impacts your well-being, relationships, and ability to contribute positively to the world. Caring about your work, for example, can lead to greater fulfillment, improved performance, and a sense of purpose, while also fostering stronger connections with others.
That notion of not being talented as to take the door. Nothing come easy. ''Not being good at something'' doesn't discard it value. 

Just because you have this experience of being discarded doesn't mean you shouldn't see value in what you do. We are born in circumstance beyond were own control and often will not be able to influence event until much later in life.
You can be always looking back or you can reframe the way you think.


Here a post i wrote that can help operate a mental shift toward less apathy.
https://crimsondaggers.com/forum/thread-6483.html