11-21-2020, 09:25 AM
If you don't trust criticism then why do you bother asking for it? Why do you bother giving so much to others for that matter? You say you want honesty but then explain that you find it untrustworthy when it turns out that it's not what you wanted to hear. I still feel as though this whole thread started as a "pat my head and tell me everything's okay" thread but I'll try and be more empathetic here.
You're absolutely right that you don't need to trust everyone or listen to everything however you've been repeatedly told the same things by many different and skilled individuals. I'd imagine at this point it's either all starting to soak in or you're still stuck in that mindset of everyone's out to get you and you should just trust your own intuition. All you need to do is ask yourself what has your own intuition gotten you over these years? If you're happy with where you're at then by all means continue on that path. But it seems to me that you're hellbent on making it in this industry, as a concept artist no less, an INCREDIBLY hard position to land by the way. It is in this light that you have such a mountain to climb that it's in your best interest to set aside your preconceptions and start listening more to all the advice you've been given through the years.
Furthermore it honestly sounds like you don't really enjoy the process at all. Perhaps you're just in love with the idea more than the craft. This profession is a hell of a thing to pursue if you don't absolutely love every aspect of it. Much like what Who was saying, a common trait among artists is the love of learning. We all fucking love the process. There is no boring repetition. This is the job. This is life. There's nothing wrong with just being a hobbyist, but if you want to be a professional you will be faced with much harsher criticism than anything you've faced here. You will be doing the same thing day in and day out regardless of how you're feeling that day.
You really just gotta sit down and do some soul searching. Be honest with yourself. Is this truly something you love doing and have the personality and willpower to pursue? It is not a profession for just anyone. Don't feel ashamed to admit that maybe it isn't for you. There's nothing wrong with just doing it all for fun and at your own pace.
You're absolutely right that you don't need to trust everyone or listen to everything however you've been repeatedly told the same things by many different and skilled individuals. I'd imagine at this point it's either all starting to soak in or you're still stuck in that mindset of everyone's out to get you and you should just trust your own intuition. All you need to do is ask yourself what has your own intuition gotten you over these years? If you're happy with where you're at then by all means continue on that path. But it seems to me that you're hellbent on making it in this industry, as a concept artist no less, an INCREDIBLY hard position to land by the way. It is in this light that you have such a mountain to climb that it's in your best interest to set aside your preconceptions and start listening more to all the advice you've been given through the years.
Furthermore it honestly sounds like you don't really enjoy the process at all. Perhaps you're just in love with the idea more than the craft. This profession is a hell of a thing to pursue if you don't absolutely love every aspect of it. Much like what Who was saying, a common trait among artists is the love of learning. We all fucking love the process. There is no boring repetition. This is the job. This is life. There's nothing wrong with just being a hobbyist, but if you want to be a professional you will be faced with much harsher criticism than anything you've faced here. You will be doing the same thing day in and day out regardless of how you're feeling that day.
You really just gotta sit down and do some soul searching. Be honest with yourself. Is this truly something you love doing and have the personality and willpower to pursue? It is not a profession for just anyone. Don't feel ashamed to admit that maybe it isn't for you. There's nothing wrong with just doing it all for fun and at your own pace.