Cj Marsh Sketchbook

[Cj_marsh]

Hey guys so i am in a funk as of late just need to do a little rant, my day job has been affecting me, its a crappy warehouse job and everyday I hate it more and more. But enough complaining I have my goals I want nothing more than to become a successful concept artist. Its like an itch that I can't scratch, and I just want to get there, but it takes time and I am willing to put in the hours. Sometimes everything just feels a little overwhelming, I cant blame only my job, I blame myself. I have alot of these bursts of energy and determination and go full force then its like I hit a wall. But I need to push through it need to break through these walls and keep up the momentum. I feel like I am sooo close to some sort of breakthrough and I can just feel like good things will be coming soon, even though everything seems crappy and some days I doubt myself, but I remember that life throws bad at you and you just need to take each hit and pick yourself up and fight back. I have my plan that I am trying to stick too and I am going full force with renewed energy with this yet again and the next time I hit a wall I plan on just going right through the bastard and keep going. No more walls will keep me down and I will push as hard as ever before and I WILL reach my goals I refuse to do anything else. This is my passion and my love, to live one day where I can say I love what I do and I am a concept artist is the goal I wish to achieve, I dont have a dream studio or project to work for, my dream is to do what I love and make that my job. Where I am now with my life is a dark murky tunnel and right now I can see a dim glowing light, my journey is far from over but I plan on pushing harder, and getting to where I want to go. I am willing to do what it takes and I WILL succeed one day, I will settle for nothing less. Anyways thats all for my rant it felt a little good to get this out and just vent. If anyone who reads this is in a similar position in their life I just want to let you know you are not the only one and remember everyone starts somewhere and pushing yourself is a task all in it own and never give up on your dreams, I know too many people who had the potential to do great things and now squander it and do nothing. But thanks to everyone who knows the struggle and is kind enough to share, and one day I will see everyone at the end of the tunnel.

side note small update I have a bunch of traditional sketches I need to upload.