Darktiste Sketchbook

[darktiste]

Hey Darktiste, was passing by and I see you re still crippled with some self confidence issue. I want to add my grain of salt to what everyone has already said, in hope that some of it may be of use to you.

What works for me to work on a regular basis is simply cutting off all distractions and not caring about the audience response. I don't play video game anymore. I don't party often. I just work every days and take a few hours a day to watch movie or hang out with friend, but my life is 80% about drawing right now , and that's the only way for me to discipline myself to work constantly. Cutting everything uneccessary.
As for people response, you know, people forget about you five minute after seing your work. Sometime its fives second. No more. You re a breeze in their life, a fleeting passenger , and that the same for everyone. Don't be concerned about what people think of you. They don't care about you. They don't care about anyone but their relatives and themselves. You re the only one who can do something for yourself, and making excuse and cursing your bad luck won't help you. You ll just get stuck at your place forever. And you're not the only one, everyone is like that at a moment of their life.
I think you think too hard about all of this. I may not be the best person to say that, because I'm an artist in training too, but at some point you just gotta stop thinking about things. And do it. It's as simple as that.
Everyone here understand you to a degree, because as artist we are all familiar with repeated failure and the comparison to more seasoned veteran. You have to move on, you re obviously disatisfied and people patting you on the head won't help you grow as an accomplished artist. Only hard work everyday will.

I don't think i am particularly trying to stay at the same place in fact putting down my thought in my sketchbook is away to say ok i see i got x y z problem now let me tell you why and what i will try to do to fix those problem.I think it just a part of my authenticity to show there as to be a struggle to grow.It not an exercise of comparaison of self bashing it an attempt to record disastifaction to move on to higher place.If this record can be useful to just 1 other person i think it worth being in my sketchbook.

I know it bug the sh1t out of people who would like to push under the rug anything they see as negative.
I personally find that we need to see both side of the artistic journey the struggle and the victory.

What is transpiring from the community is shut up and work .It kinda annoying but understandable people don't come here to see me talk about problem they come here to get inspired and to help.I just feel like i got a responsability to show people that excuse won't work in here.That we can actually be open about were problem and that people can come together and find solution.

Without this discussion i don't think you can simply solve thing with hard work because you simply burn out running into the same problem over and over again you need to be able to find people willing to help you ease the problem solving.