Darktiste Sketchbook

[darktiste]

i reach a point where i had no idea how to even start to address how i would go about doing the scale so i just call it done...

Never eat more than you can handle.That my advise of the day.

My advice would be quite the opposite
Aim a step or two further than the level you are tackling,
by looking at whats beyond that level it makes it appear easier in contrast to whats to come.

Have an attempt at the scales even for 5 minutes and you could possibly learn something.
Focus is great n context of certain situations, but if you only focus on how to chop ingredients, you'll still not know how to cook anything.

I highly recommend you start working on a project that you will push to very finished look no matter how long it takes.
it does not mean you cant do studies along the way, In fact when you get stuck on the panting it can inform which studies you should work on.

If you don't know what you would want to invest time into painting
give it some thought
because if you can't find an answer for that, whats the difference if you had the skills anyway

Your right that sometime you gotta put on the pressure on to raise your level it seem that doing so only discourage me to draw more because i realize it beyond my current skillset.I prefer baby step to giant challenge that just get me discouraged of course that doesn't breed fast improvement it just how one is able to deal with pressure it something i don't think anyone is really good at you kind just have to do it anyways and feel the pain.

I was certainly not going for anything finish actually rendering was even part of my plan but knowing myself sometime rendering just kick in is part of my bad habit when idk what i am really doing.It like wanting to put the cherry on a cake that isn't baked yet.I just want to be done with fish there not my favorite thing to draw yet because i know how bad i suck at them but i am gonna try to take my time i don't want to be sloppy.I made a few mistake that added to the confuse of where i was going.Sometime when something go wrong the rest follow.It why i like to have a plan but it seem i didn't had one for this study.I am methodical or i am almost totally chaotic

In term of personal project i feel it necessary right now that they take the secondary stage in favor of study my fundamental are pretty weak even after all the time i spent i have not necessarly been brave enough and it showing.It reaching it breaking point where i want that to change in a constructive but none destructive way but i am not convince any other approch would be beneficial to keep me away from burning out.I just want an approch that let you draw everyday so that i don't go without day without drawaing but it ok if i didn't draw for a day or two also.For me it essential that i keep the flame going because art is one of the only thing i am proud about and that really important that i can feel i am being sucessful at it because i want to turn it into my career and make something out of myself.No body want the fun to go away or feel like they can't do something that why my approach might not be perfect right now.In the end even discipline can't do anything if you feel like you not going to succeeded.Passion is the fuel but discipline is what differentiate the hobbiest from the professional it where i need to switch for a more passionate approch to a more discipline one believe me i am trying to be more distant from my body of work but at the same time idk it seem like it would leak who i am and i think it important that maybe i find other way to express myself outside of art so that i have different way to feel like i am not stuck with only art as away to channel my emotion.