Darktiste Sketchbook

[darktiste]

Yea i agree thank for backing what i was in a way thinking about doing it seem that i am actually progressing in what i see myself doing.

But i am seeing resistance because i am actually starting to realize what i like and dislike more clearly now that i am actively seeking to identify what i like instead of trying everything.(which was still useful)My conflict right now is how much anatomy i want to continue pushing there this inner conflict between me wanting to do creature and character design but what really seem to be what i wasn't understanding clearly before it not that i necessarly enjoy creating character but rather that i find enjoyment in creating the element that support the character like i almost prefer to tell story throught costume&prop than making a good looking figure. I don't care so much about realism but to break the rule you have to know the rule as they say.

For me anatomy seem to be such a high mountain to climb i would probably rather climb other thing that would benefit me more but i can't just simply ignore it if i am being realistic about my other design interest(character,creature design)it nice to create costume and prop but sometime it nice to create association with a character.

What i think i am trying to say is that it always a fight between wanting to create a nice creative cake and the inability to create a convincing cake.Design is secondary to drawing i gotta keep it real can't lie there no future for me without actual drawing skill no matter how cool my idea might be.It can be really frustrating but saying that doesn't change that so why i am even bothering saying that idk.

I think i am trying to find excuse again not to do anatomy i find that when i approch anatomy it like i am never gonna be done studying that subject and it leak what i like it not creative right away!!!But on ther other hand doing prop even if it just a boring cup of tea you can try to do something that let you express that creative urge.So it a question of do i delay the gratification(being able to create figure) or do i do thing that seem easy to me(costume and prop) do i prefer my reward to be through expressing creativivty or do i get reward through feeling more competent about my skill in regard to anatomy.

No body can answers that for me that the reality what kinda enrage me right now is you want to help me but it like i am moving away from what your proposing and i don't want you to feel like i am avoid what should be done.It a hard place to be to when you know what you want.Let just say i don't think i am gonna be doing anatomy for to long since my vision is becoming alot more clear than it was i will be able to adjust for there. Who know i might develop a taste for anatomy.

Before i had to many option but i wasn't really digging into what aspect of those study i was enjoying now i feel like i am working with more passion because i start to understand why i am doing art and what message i can inject into my art even if sometime i just enjoy creating for the sake of creating.