Darktiste Sketchbook

[darktiste]

Well it just sometime you draw boring stuff to draw the cool stuff and sometime you think a client is gonna give you nice thing to draw but you also needed to practice drawing the boring stuff because it not always nice stuff you gotta draw.But don't worry i am not at my first rodeo it just that i am arriving at a point where frustration is coming out because i feel like i should be further yet i know i been doing some self sabotage in a sense staying in comfort zone for example it not that i leak goal it not that i leak direction or project.It that i keep going back to comfort zone when i feel overwhelm that why i changed my approch to be somewhat slower less risk driven but i am now at a point where i need to take bolder risk because it like i have no been fulfilling where i said i would be by now.Maybe i had unrealistic goal for my skillset maybe i didn't push myself hard enough.I certainly know that i should fail alot and fast and often but it easier said than done because of past experience it not easy to accept more failure it often push me back to the comfort zone if you see what i mean or being perfectionist because you don't want to fail.

Anyways i don't want to turn this sketchbook into a diary but i have to get stuff out of my system i know i am not alone in this but it easier to think so.It easier to be alone in your misery sometime.But it not constructive and i know that i know better.