Darktiste Sketchbook

[darktiste]

Sorry i forgot to click reply.Did the back pose now i am collecting reference for more gesture drawing will probably do a mix of 2min, 10m and 30min and 1 hour drawing.Probably something like 30x 2min pose 6x10m 2x30min and 1x1hour pose and i will call it quit form there and come back revisiting the topic not saying that the end of it for my whole life it just that i don't really know how much of this i should be doing realistically and have time for the rest of the thing i have to progress into.I am certainly worried about where i am investing my time now i know it gonna pay off it just what is gonna be the use of anatomy if i end up being more interest by costume and prop that where there a conflict in my vision.

To put in perspective. That is only one half day of work you're willing to put in for the foreseeable future!

If it was one day a week for a few months or a year that would be better. 
Most people spend months to years on figures as a good subject and way to practice most if not all drawing fundamentals! 
Yes, even for people who want to draw things besides figures. I don't think you understand this basic thing at all tbh.

I second the suggestion to never resort to your mirroring crutch again until you are a professional artist. It's a lazy shortcut that gives you no mileage in these exercises.
Also second the multiple suggestions in your sb of using pressure sensitivity to adjust your line weight as you draw. If it ends up looking shit, it's because your skills are shit. Better to know. Also you can and should do some of these things traditionally. You are using all the digital tricks you can to try and wiggle out of actual learning. Can't cheat in pencil.

At this stage I still think the best option for you is to enrol immediately in a course (online for obv reasons) that teaches drawing fundamentals with specific deliverables and feedback, so you don't have to try and prioritise it yourself accurately at all. Watts or SynStudio or Dorien Iten's paid content; really anything that focuses on your actual drawing skills. None of these courses are silver bullets alone, but they are all definitely bound to be better than what you are deciding for yourself, because that just isn't working. There are many reasons why people pay to learn, but I feel like investing more actual money into proper training will force you to value the subject more as well as help you improve despite your odd relationship to training. As you have been a pretty slow and self sabotaging, self teacher, I'm afraid if you keep leaving it to yourself, you'll only go right back to the same old pattern. You're already doing it

If you wish to just keep doing your own thing and not invest adequate time + money into the training aspect, I think it's better for you that you put career or job far out of your mind and just do art for fun in only the way you want and maybe creep up on the goal in the next decade. That's more accurate to your situation as it stands.

I don't know what to tell you bro you got valid point.I am doing as much as possible to pivot my work right now so if you feel like i am falling into my old habit idk what your refering to exactly.

Now concerning online course i been studying steven huston and did some gesture drawing i am gonna be posting soon.I don't have any course in mind right now even after checking for sometime.No body going to teach me how to appreciate fundamental if i don't do it myself.But they certainly can teach me more about them.I understand that you don't trust my judgement but for my own confidence i have to trust my own judgement and your advise do help you don't need to doubt that.

I kinda hate this back and forth if i can't defend my choose and that is kinda unfair if you want to really help me i would argue.But i also agree that sometime it better to argue later and do the work.

Of course life is full of disagreement and personal preference and we gotta deal with that.If i argue alot it that i like to understand why i am doing something.I have to argue because like you said right now i am my own teacher.

Thank you for everything your doing for me even as harsh it might be on me i do hope that what your saying is making me stronger and not the other way around.

Posting my progress soon let just be clear that what gonna be posted was before this message since i am compiling instead of positing right away.