Rate my skill level

[darktiste]

You're already just trying your hardest to explain everything away instead of actually absorbing any of the information being given out. 

Asking help is just the easy part in this story.

I am the captain of my ship if you can't argue or won't argue it doesn't give me confidence that your criticism is going to lead me to sucess i am not the type to put blindfold and trust teacher i had my fair share of bad teacher or perhaps like you said i am just a terrible student.

If you show me respect i will understand that you have my best interest but if you feel like i am not respecting you i think it best we avoid being toxic toward each other because you might not have the quality necessary to get your message to be accepted by me.

You might see why something is important but if your not willing to explain.I don't see why i should i bother consider what is being said i will not necessary see what purpose it serve and my effort will not be sustain by the understanding of the purpose those exercise serve.In the case of what your suggesting i am not sure to as why i am not convincing you exactly in those realm can you give me example of some of my work that some of my weak point and provide cue as to what i am not fully grasping in that specific fundamental?I see an issue in how i present my work certainly if one assume i can only do orthographic view of object and mirroring front view of object they assume i am at a really amateur level.

On a different note I don't necessarly understand how to give you the respect you deserve by the way you deliever your critism it dry and probably useful and it probably also that you care and don't want to sugar coast anything since in been doing this for long enough time that you think i can take anything that come my way but as you are also probably aware i am not also an expert at taking criticism if there no room to argue back. How is one suppose to be good at taking critism is it just doing everything your told or actually understand why your doing something and why it useful in the bigger picture?

I don't think it useful to apolagize when were opinion diverge.All we can doing here is wish for other sucess and give them the best advise we have and to expecting people to take every advise we give them is an exercise that will only make you run into a wall of deception and bitterness.

It hurt me when i am wrong but only when i realize it and there always a part of me who will try to put the blame on someone else but that just how ego work.So excuse me if my ego doesn't listen will i genuinely want help.When it try to protect me it actually is hurting me.The ego want me to believe that i am good enough that i know better i know those thing aren't necessarly always the truth but who doesn't like a lie that taste good?Being self taught is a journey of self doubt.So excuse me if i doubt when i am told it to help me.Trust is a process it doesn't magically appear out of thin air.



EDIT_ FOR -WHO I WAS STILL WRITING THIS MESSAGE BEFORE I SAW YOUR REPLY.I Don't think anything for what you said is fundamentally wrong i am just concern to how can i go about fixing working in a fashion that doesn't scream repetitiveness if that something possible.