11-21-2020, 07:31 AM
It not much a problem of listening for me it is a problem of trusting critic from people that suddendly appear and having issue gauging the validity of the critism. I hear them but do i trust them?Would you follow bad advise?No body understand my life story or why i got so many issue but oh boy some judge without knowing my life .It doesn't mean that i should use that as an excuse to not grow it simply in the way and make it more difficult to get help.Sometime we prefer to make were own mistake so that atleast we feel we can't blame people for them.But in reality we are always to blame for the decision we make regardless of if we get help or not.It a leak of judgement in part due to leak of self trust that is the problem.I am still learning to understand what is a constructive criticism it to easy to let the ego tell you oh that jalousy or they don't know what there talking about we already have a plan remember and keep digging my own grave...
Atm it really hard for me to draw because even by my own it sometime hard to tell what i am trying to prioritze i can only try to avoid the error other people are warning me about being stubborn i do more error then i should.So right now i am in limbo trying to become really aware of what holding me down and make it as clear as day what are my issue to the outside so they can have a better picture of my internal issue.
Sadly were world talk about genius in a manner like they where the only contributing force to there sucess and that a really bad thing because it send out a really bad message about seeking outside help.
I don't think i got anything more to add i really dislike opening up like this i hate the feeling of being vulnerable but i understand that without this opening i am digging my own grave.
I want to thank everyone for the respect and time they have shown me.I am sincerely believing i am doing my best to stop self sabotaging like that even if i would like the incomfort to be gone it a integral part of growth it by getting comfortable with that incomfort that we expand more and more what we can tolerate better.
Atm it really hard for me to draw because even by my own it sometime hard to tell what i am trying to prioritze i can only try to avoid the error other people are warning me about being stubborn i do more error then i should.So right now i am in limbo trying to become really aware of what holding me down and make it as clear as day what are my issue to the outside so they can have a better picture of my internal issue.
Sadly were world talk about genius in a manner like they where the only contributing force to there sucess and that a really bad thing because it send out a really bad message about seeking outside help.
I don't think i got anything more to add i really dislike opening up like this i hate the feeling of being vulnerable but i understand that without this opening i am digging my own grave.
I want to thank everyone for the respect and time they have shown me.I am sincerely believing i am doing my best to stop self sabotaging like that even if i would like the incomfort to be gone it a integral part of growth it by getting comfortable with that incomfort that we expand more and more what we can tolerate better.