Fedodika the Koala

[Fedodika]

Kimonas: Thanks man, I draw buttz cuz BUSTIN MAKE ME FEEL GUUH

Gregor: XX

Drew all these poses from imagination, I suppose all those piles of paper I had drawn at least gave me a good sense of gesture. I wanted to test myself and see what i could do just freehanding them, turns out I can kinda wing anything. Hmm, gotta have fun with it, I'll try to come up with a full character tomorrow

[Fedodika]

Gotta work on planting feet, and uuh, not sucking, that's a good idea!

[tinDeer]

Cool sketches! I really like that intense look of the guy below the dinosaurs at the top left.
also, I can very much identify with your attitude towards feet

[Fedodika]

Deer: Thx heeh

Alrighty, well, I don't have any art to post today, but I do have some interesting thoughts I discovered today... On the 25th of February, that's when things kinda clicked for me like, you gotta love what you draw. So, likewise, I said I don't know what I love to draw, so i thought I'd try to find it this month. 

Everything at this point feels like this grey, like I feel like I could draw anything and have about the same level enjoyment doing so, in any style. I don't think that's a good thing to be honest, because it feels very passionless and unfocused. I could draw an anime girl or a crazy face, or a naked lady, or a tank, or a building or an animal, it'd all kinda feel the same.

I think it stems from my ability to impersonate things. That's something I'm extremely good at is mocking things and doing like impressions. So a lot of the time I forget who I am because I'm so good at pretending to be something else, and wearing multiple hats from day to day based on how I interact with people. 

So, that's more a cause of circumstance really, I have little real passion for a particular visual subject, just art itself. I love the fundamentals of art, and exploring them, but the subject matter is something I could care less about. This isn't good because people care about subject matter, i mean that's what attracts people to someone's art. I've fallen into the very same thing Dave Rapoza and Dan Warren warned many times about in livestreams, where you forget why you even started doing this. 

And I acknowledge that's a huge problem I have right now, and it's a very bleak feeling. I admire great art, but it's rarely for it's subject matter, and more for it's technical executation. So I tried to think of what artist(s) excited me the most on the subject matter alone. And that was Serge Birault. Dark, Sexy, Funny. He had those three things I love. So it's like, Gothic, funny, and mildly sexy pinups. So I wrote down the word gothic, since that's the first thing about his work you'd notice. (But even with this, I still don't feel excited seeing this particular subject matter, it's more a memory of a feeling.) 

Why am I so drawn to that? I think it's because as a kid, I was in love with gothic looking characters like Winona Ryder in Beetlejuice, and any character who wore dark things, like Raven from Teen Titans, or some other video game characters. Particularly female characters, it was a bit of a sexual attraction, and the gothic look was something I liked about women in particular. I never really cared for the candles or skulls or all that other stuff you can buy at hot topic. I like (naturally) pale skin, dark hair, eye makeup, dark clothes etc. 

So I did a LOT of research today, reading stuff about goth culture, and finding a lot of interesting things that actually held my attention. I don't imagine reading stuff about anime or ancient Roman History, or trivia about Korean politics would interest me like this does, so it must be resonating. I think I genuinely enjoy it, i mean, I hope I do. 

However, I am approaching it very academically; I'm taking a lot of notes, and bouncing off different searches for things I don't understand and trying to form an opinion on it. It's tough, because I don't really care. I wished I could care, it's wierd... I wished I were like a kid again who got excited about things, like anything. I feel like my personal happiness is like a flatline, I mean I love to laugh and I don't feel depressed, it's just hard to find enjoyment in kind of the novelties people seem to enjoy. In visual things at least, I have no problem ejoying the novelty of music or audio content. I think slaving to fundamentals for these years has done this to me, so I don't think it's permenant. 

But maybe I don't have to care, it can just be something I laugh at because let's face it; gothic subculture can get silly. It's very melodramatic and corny; very consumer and materialist oriented along with some liberal ideas about sexuality and expression, and you know, the purity of "being goth enough." 

One thing I really just am in fear of is that homogenous look that things seem to get. Like if you look at everything that's kind of made it to the top in anything visual, like photography for example; If you type in "pretty woman" all the images look the same on google images, same format. If you type "Suicide girls" individually these women look different, but then amongst others they're nothing special. "Goth," "Emo," Anything you can think of that has a visual element has this homogenous look online. A kind of professional, Amazon ready look you know. Very evident in Youtubers as well, or any kind of headshot people take for their website. 

I hate it with a passion. I know what I DON'T like and that's it. I like stuff that has grit and not just a photoshop filter to add grit, but real grit and story. I love bedrooms in movies that have tons of stuff laying everywhere, and I love things that aren't too clean. I hate the look of minimalist things that are very immaculate and perfect. I like things that look like they've been lived in, it adds a sense of realism and I want things to feel like they really exist in someone's life. 

And when I go to look into goth things it's hard to drill past that sterile homogeny, but I am getting deeper, finding interesting things that actually do keep me reading and looking. So yea, that's been my day, still got a lot of stuff to figure out, maybe if I sleep after all this I might come up with a cool visual idea. But I'm not holding my breath.

[Triggerpigking]

Goth girls FTW (especially Raven :P).
It's cool that you're trying to figure everything out like this dude, myself I think I've already figured out what kind of art I like to do(though for me it's now the fundamentals that are an issue), I wish you luck in doing the same :).

[Fedodika]

Triggered: Yesh! It's different for all of us! Lend me some passion if you have some to spare <3

Aight, so didn't get any drawing done today, had to help the folks a whole lot, which suckz :/. Did learn a few things tho,

1. The main reason I was pushed away from goth is that I thought it was limited to just black and white compositions, since the skin was just one big white spot and the black a big rainbow spot... So basically, I learned today, looking through a lot of modern painters that you can just shift values and hues to make something that appears to be a black clothing article appear a completely different value or hue. Which opened my mind up a lot.

2. Also, you can learn how to mix colors old school style without crackin out your oils, or acolytes,  or Gyrados Magic Schoolbuses. You can just practice them base tones on your corel painter or photoshop (but not any other software, you literally have to have these softwares because the brushes are magic ;)

Did some more gothic research, getting a bit deeper with it. Something I really care about is extreme metal. I remember one time I had a private conversation with a young lady where I said something along the lines of "Because Extreme metal is so important to me." She then said, "Lol, you should get a shirt with that in big letters with a picture of your face."

So I actually plan on doing that at some point in my life, and mailing her one, so she knows how serious I am. Anyways, I was learning how gothic culture overlaps with metal very closely, like cousins. Goth culture, however, is much more concerned with image and the lifestyle than the metalhead world. I've learned a lot about movies goths love, which many of them I've seen, music they love, which most of them I haven't heard, and goth literature, which I've actually read a bit of.

I hope to make something cool out of it... Hmm, time is a precious thing to waste, but who knows what is the best way to spend it.

[Fedodika]

okey, so some crap attempts at gestures today, gonna try to get back to drawing more. I have a vague idea coming to me of what I want to see but I can see these psychological barriers keeping me up, be it a lack of knowledge or a fear or uncertainty. The mind works in mysterious ways, that's for sure, I should probably sleep in more... I'm kinda trying a new way of setting up gestures, it's one I've seen a few times recently where you just use blocks and simple shapes. It's not really giving me what I'm used to, but I feel the end result would be more solid, so I'm gonna keep developing it. 


This lolita sketch took about 2 hrs, but I kinda like how it turned out. Would change the pose though, or maybe the camera angle

[Jonesoda]

putting in the work man <3

[Fedodika]

Jonez: Peepee

[Fedodika]

I think Sycra's Iterative drawing concept is insanely smart and helpful. Gonna do it a bit more tomorrow!

[gregorkari]

cool! loving the girls!

[Fedodika]

Greg: more of those on the way!

Felt insanely motivated today, wished I could have done even more. watched about 8 episodes of Sycras pointy chin series and the sketches in that are so inspiring, I promise you if you haven't seen it, the sketches he does are not what you'd expect. And the way he's talking about developing a style resonates with me perfectly right now, I'm super happy it exists. 

I love this witch I drew as well, and my influences are really starting to bleed into this stuff, but that's a good thing! only thing I dislike is the hand. But I feel like it's cool everytime I look at it, so things must be going right somewhere in there. Drawing is EVERYTHING!! and it SHOULD BE FUN!!

Seeing people I love their style develop over the years is so intersting... I hope I don't get out of touch with painting, because I can see how people just dive in once they kind of get how fun drawing can be, it was tough to put the pen down today lol

[Fedodika]

Trying to draw on paper some more, so these are a little rough. I need to break my kind of babied eraser line style from digital and place lines with better form and structure better. I mean I can do it, I just have to erase things lightly and constantly and cntrl Z stuff to get it to look right. my initial lines have a very rogue, wild sense, which I like but I need to work on sculpting them more, it's just gonna take doing it more really. 

Also Corel painter 12 has a cool thing called the Mixer where you can practice mixing colors just like oil paints, so I've been learning a lot of interesting things just fooling around with that the past few days. Nothing to show though, since it's just a tool. 

Having a lot more fun lately though, just doing stuff I want; I wanna draw stuff that's crazy and squishy, but also has hints of sharp edges and bizarre shapes. Still don't know what I'm gonna end up painting, but I'm enjoying the learning process in the meantime!

[Fedodika]

here's som shitty feet, gonna try to do more tommorrow hoo hoo, got kinda behind! Probably all those silly figgets in the Discord XX had a lotta fun guys, but I gotta stay outta there it eats up my time lol

[Fedodika]

remember, schlongs are part of male anatomy, don't forget em ;)

[Pinshivic]

Really interesting style you got developing, nice dicks btw LOL.

[Fedodika]

Pin: Thx heheheh <3 hope it'll be very interesting one day ,,

whew, tried some animation today, but nothing I could post. I noticed how inconsistent my shapes were, so i went back to basics for some feet construction and discovered a few crucial things about building forms with simple shapes. You can never get enough of that stuff...

It's crazy though, how much more strategic my brain is now with things. Like it knows tricks that just enhance an image, like a tilt or moving some element to avoid a tangent, quite cerebral. Theory about drawing is very helpful; still trying to figure out what it is I want to draw though, that's the toughest part for me in particular. 

[Fedodika]

lotta studying... maybe starting to pay off!

All after this guy, super in luv
http://slb-creations.deviantart.com/art/...-574703655

[Fedodika]

Ya got a problem with me? Well come on down we'll settle it... The ol' fashion way, I'll whip your ass, and you can go down and... suck ya mammas titty or whatever ya need ta do

[Fedodika]

Tryna, do... Other things than boobs so this sketchbook doesn't turn into total degeneracy :d