Thanks Rognoll :)
Facial features are quite hard indeed, escpecially at angles.
On another note, had kind of an off day. Im like a lightswitch, on and off, on and off etc.
Did not meet the goal, so I figure I got to make some changes to further help myself.
Quess its time for a little story.
I'm getting mentally tired, I think, almost every day I just lie down in my bed and listen to music or just daydream for 1 or sometimes 2 hours. Its related to working on art, I dont wanna waste time on playing games, so I fill in the gaps of lazyness with "rest". Also I keep getting these thoughts "But I have 3-4 years, thats plenty of time, why be so harsh on yourself, lay off".
Thats the lazyness talking.
I'm quessing knowledge about my mistakes and such isnt enough, I have to keep fighting until im hardened and disciplined.
Why am I this way?
I'm not a down to earth guy, I'm a dreamer of a sorts. Even as a kid I tried to avoid working.
But what really increased my lazyness was school. I used to go every day. Then at 5th or 6th grade I got bullied and started to hate school even more. Thus I started finding ways to skip school, parents were angry, so I had to constantly improve my techniques.
Some years forward and the habit of skipping school(even if the bad shit stopped), or avoiding stuff is still with me. In the mornings I always analyse what I have to do in school and stay home if I can.(well I used to anyway) Same goes for homework.
The environment is the same, my friends are lazy and they somewhat praise how less homework they do (dumbest thing ever). They say with pride "oh that thing, didnt do it". That also leaves some kind of an effect.
This year I didnt skip school that much, maybe once in 2 weeks average, because of the new policy the school instituted. But homework, I skipped that every time I could.
So thats where my lazyness and procastination evolved.
Even today I'm counting the hours, always thinking what will the clock be when im done with my 10 hours. Partly im doing it so that I do 10 hours instead of mistakingly doing less, partly because of something else.
I should break my workload to smaller bits, I still go by "do art 10h, you can do whatever you want, but spend a total of 10h doing it".
That approach may seem like it has a lot of flexibility and freedom, but its actually quite hard.
New schedule:
1. Do 2 hours of studies from artbooks.
2. Do 4 hours of studies from various refs.
3. Do a still life for 1-2 hours.
7-8 hours is mandatory. If counting hours, do so according to this.
Optional: once done with 8 hours.
1. Concepts based on studies.
OR
2. Do more studies.
Quess its still kind of "too general", but beats the previous schedule.
Movie study 2
Shenanigans 4
PS- Got too carried away writing, I do that at times, sorry for the Long ass text.
